*oh menawan ;)

When you feel sad, remember this ;)

2012-01-06T10:20:00.001+08:00

Wonderful things Allah said to us :) Subhanallah <3

Yunus; 10:107

2012-01-06T10:18:00.002+08:00

The sweetest thing :)

2011-12-02T01:55:00.001+08:00

I received this wonderful birthday gift 3 days ago. All the way from Dundee, United Kingdom :) She's the sweetest friend ever, my bestfriend in the whole wide world Maryam Arina <3

But I don't love her because of the present that she gave me but the priceless friendship that we had and I'll value it for the rest of my life :)

Little something;

2011-11-16T14:28:00.001+08:00

Salam.

The Prophet Muhammad said, may Allah's peace and blessings be upon him: Your Heaven lies under the feet of your mother

(Ahmad, Nasai)

"Thy Lord hath decreed that ye worship none but Him, and that ye be kind to parents. Whether one or both of them attain old age in thy life, say not to them a word of contempt, nor repel them, but address them in terms of honor. And out of kindness, lower to them the wing of humility, and say: ‘My Lord! bestow on them Thy Mercy even as they cherished me in childhood' "

(17:23-24).

Well, today is not a mother's day or my mother's birthday but I just found this verse of Quran and also, hadith from Prophet Muhammad :) For me, everyday is a mother's day!

I love my mom and Igaduh gaduh biasa or gurau manja is normal to me. Well, of course not in the form of yelling or scolding or whatnot. The past weeks, I've a bit of emotional instability. I can't imagine a daughter who already became a mother now scold her own mother. Blaming the mom for everything, as an example, blaming her own mom because her baby daughter had swallow some methyl silicate or blaming her mother because of everything that has happened. That was unacceptable for me. Yes, it was.

When i asked, why scold your mom. She said with no guilt in her face. That's how I rolled. That's how I treat my mom. She also said that although I scold my mom, I love her. And I was like :O So, you scold your mom and you never ever think of how she felt, and yet you say you love her. Astaghafirullah. Above are some verse in Quran that clearly said

"Whether one or both of them attain old age in thy life, say not to them a word of contempt, nor repel them, but address them in terms of honor"

Say not to them a word of contempt, nor repel them, but address them in terms of honor. So, is shouting can be classed as honor? The point here is, I am not pointing my fingers solely on the woman mentioned but to all of us and a great reminder for myself as well. Think again, we might not knowing or realize what we have said to our mother. Or sometimes, our actions that literally hurting them. We never think and bother about how they feel. But rather of how we feel and they should treat us the way we like it.

We only have one mother in this world. The one and only that has brought us here in this world. Why can't we appreciate them. Well, we did but maybe we have to show more. So, I fell there's a need to say I love you, ibu to my mom every single day. What say you ? ;)

Hey you :)

2011-11-14T22:30:00.001+08:00

This is what I thought about you ;)

Watch me

2011-11-13T20:32:00.001+08:00

Upside down

2011-11-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Its been ages. Yes, ages since my last post yang crave sangat sweeeeet foods and hoyeaahh! I managed to eat all of them minus the apple strudle. -___________-" I've been tweeting a lot lately, okay maybe not lately but most of the time. Haha and reading stuff as well as watching. One issue that caught my eyes, Seksualiti Merdeka. So, before anything let me tell you what exactly is seksualiti merdeka.From what I've read, Seksualiti Merdeka is to allow gay and lesbian relationship in Malaysia. Simplistic definition.

I know I am nobody to discuss about this or to raise my voice but I think this is absurd. You know, ludicrous. To actually support all gay and lesbian, should be strictly prohibited. As a Muslim, I don't agree with this and yes some says, they don't choose to be gay or who they are going to fall for but what are we doing? Stands for their rights? As if we are full of love and care and try to protect them, to say that they should have someone to actually support them. But ladies and gentlemen, this is not the way. Indeed they need someone to help them. We as intellectual, and responsible human, and as for me, a Muslim, Yes, we should support them but not supporting them to continue and think that yes, its okay for you to do this and yadaa yadaaa, instead giving them some food for thought. Giving counseling and direct them to the right path. Allah is everywhere and Allah memegang hati hati mereka, InsyaAllah they will change :) Supporting is not helping but instead, making the world upside down. They are not guilty, they just need someone to help them and we can help them but in a right way lah kan :)

The rational here is that, what kind of activity or campaign that will be done or had been done should know its limitation boundary. Think of Malaysian sensitivity. Have some sense and think before everything become haywire. I know, this is a very sensitive issues to be blogged about. Maybe, I'll lost my followers or I don't know what will happen in anytime soon. I just feel to write. For now, I just pray that Malaysia is safe and Allah protect all of us in Malaysia. Amin :)

I'm sweeeeeeeeeeet

2011-10-14T19:23:00.000+08:00

I am craving for dessert. Something sweeeeeeeet ;) *wink wink* memang dasar perempuan demok -_____-"

Caramel Frappucino. T_____T

Chocolate Eclair. Sedapnyaaaaa. tsk tsk tsk

Apple strudle. I'm planning to make this on my own but sadly kena pegi kedai and beli all the stuff. So, malas at the end -__________-"

Pavlova. Boleh je buat sendiri but buah for garnishing tak ada laa pulak +_____________+

Red Velvet. I want ! @___________@

Okay, then last last I just makan nie je because itu je yang ada di dapur plus tak payah buat susah susah

Redcurrant puffs

Digestive biscuits. Nyum nyum ! :DD

I miss you

2011-10-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Salam.

I miss him. Yes I do. He's one of a kind. He love me for who I am. He makes me happy when some looser's tease me. He never failed to put a smile on my face. He wipe my tears and console me. He's my tough, handsome man. He's my late Tok Sham.

I still remember the first time he scolded me, he thought that I was gone because he was waiting in the car patiently to pick me up from school. He was worried. Too worried I guess, that's why he scold me. Never wanting anything bad happening to me. I cried that time because I was too naive to know what exactly happening. But then again, that was the first and the last. Opah said, Tok always get upset whenever people compared his grandchildren. For him, we are the best grandchildren that he had. We are more beautiful than any other kids in our age and we are much more smarter than them. That's Tok. If Tok is still alive today, he will surely be proud of his grandchildren. Everyone grew up to be a wonderful person. We miss you Tok.

Tok Sham, it's been like 10 years you leave me. You leave me in a sudden. I did not get a chance to meet you for the last time and say goodbye to you Tok. I miss you, I really do. I guess itu aturan Allah but don't worry, everytime I pray, kakak baca al Fatihah untuk Tok and I pray that Allah placed you with orang orang yang beriman. may we meet again in heaven. Tok, I'll be flying to Australia soon. Kakak nak jadi doctor. If you were alive, you must be happy and will send me to the airport. Tok, I promise I will be a good doctor and proudly say saya cucu Shamsuddin. I still remember you comb my hair and send me to school. Petang petang, we will go around kampung with motorcycles and you will bought sweets for me and kaknyah. I was sensitive back then. When andak and cikyang tease me, I'll run to you and cry out loud. You called me Cik Muni and I wonder why but I miss that. I miss the Cik Muni songs you sang to me. Tok, I'm lucky Allah still give me a chance to see you and be your grandchildren although only for a while. I'm grateful I have such a wonderful Tok like you. I borrowed you from Allah and Allah take you back, away from me. Thank you Allah for this wonderful gift :') I'm sorry we did not had a chance to take a picture together but your memory are still strong, carefully kept in my heart. Your voice, your face are still clear in my head. Tok, for the 100000000000000000000000 times, I want to say, I miss you and I love you Tok Sham. InsyaAllah, we'll meet again in heaven.

You are remembered by each passing day
In our hearts and soul for you we pray.
Looking back to the days I woke up to you
And to the days you spent with me to.

I'd run to you, and sit on your knee,
Rocking in the chair, was just you and me.
With you I always went along for a ride,
I sat by you, right by your side.

You would hold my hand, and give a good night kiss.
These days remembered, I will always miss.
Sometimes as I remember you, I beg and I cry,
Wishing that you would have never died.

But as the days go on, for you I will pray,
And remember you by each passing day

-By Christina Hintenberger-

Of purple roses;

2011-10-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum people :) Honestly I've been wondering what to write and I found this picture (above). BE HAPPY people. Be happy and grateful that Allah had gives us the chance to live again, to breath freely, to look upon our love ones, and to capture and catch every moment that you can to make your life worthwhile. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah :) And yes, now I'm happy <3

PBL PBL PBL

2011-10-02T16:04:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Hello people ! Happy day today :) I woke up late today -______- Oh my. but still, i manage to kejar pakcik MPT to throw my garbage away. Weeeeee :D And also, i manage to finish all the laundry. phewwww *angkat kening* So feel very super woman today. Hahahahaha. Anyway, I went to kamal Bookstore yesterday. Yes, yesterday. So, I bought some books. Medical books of course. I bought only 3 books. Cukuplaaa, kan. And, yes. Shockinglyy, tebalnyaa buku. ohhmaaiiigoddd. macam mana nak habiskan nie -_____- Okay, kata pun buku medic, takkan 12 muka surat kot kan. So, i bought anatomy, clinical examination, and histology. yes, Histology yang cell cell tu. Haaaa, the reason why i bought this book mestilah untuk dibaca kan. Takkan lah nak buat display dekat rumah letak dalam almari antik ibu kot kan. Hewhewhew. Walaupun ada few people yang cakap. belum start medic lagi for God sake but I chose not to care. I rather study first, so InsyaAllah, ready for my Uni life next year. Besides, my university practice PBL learning system (Problem Base Learning) you can read here if you wanna know more on this PBL system. Its more on self study and so, i have to start early or else kena tinggal dgn mat salleh mat salleh di sana. So, its a choice laa kan?

Exhibit 1

This one is a DVD, so that you can easily learn the hardest part of anat and physio

Histology :)

Exhibit 2

See how thick the books? Anatomy pun dah macam 4 set buku Harry Potter -_____-

So, they said PBL is hard and i need to study from now or else, sediakan dulang emas so boleh letak kepala dia atas tu berserta hiasan timun dan tomato :| Okay, people. Have to get going. Till then. Assalamualaikum :)

The other buttercup is yet to come home :)

2011-09-30T15:54:00.002+08:00

Assalamualikum :)

Happy Friday people ! I hope everybody is in a good health. I'm not really that well, by means I'm having some slight difficulties because my nose is filled with unwanted mucus *sobs sbos and my voice was not sweet as before so if i were to sing, it will sound more like katak panggil hujan -_____-

Well well well, I'm happy today because my sister is back at home. Yeay! Now, there is three of us. Me and the other two buttercups. Feeling good today although their annoying is on top of the roof. Duuhhh! Biasalah, nama pun adik beradik. So, this evening my family and I will off to go and pick up other buttercup at Shah Alam. And yes, to ehem ehem *caugh caugh* I will lalu in front of your Uni and wave at you walaupun you obviously tak nampak. Hahaha.

And so, it's 3.30 pm and we were too bored doing nothing except for watching some horrible show. Okayla, mungkin tak horrible but kinda boring. Mungkin tak suit dgn jiwa jiwa kanak kanak gembira riang like us. Woot wooot, apa lagi. camwhore. memang kerja masa lapang. Its good when you're using your laptop for camwhoring. Kulit akan menjadi sangat mulus, dan putih smerbak apatah lagi jerawat semua hilang begitu sahaja. Hewhewhew ;)

Take 1

Take 2

Take 3 konon semua hot.

Take 4 so, everybody wants to promote Colgate ;) Yes, we used Colgate

Take 5 They thought it was a "con" pose means control pose -___-

Take 6

Take 7 Some re adjustment would do ;)

Take 8 I guess everyone is happy :)

Actually, kita nak cakap yang I'm so happy my buttercups is home. My adik adik although annoying but still, can melt your heart away :) Till then people. have a nice day !

It's okay if you're not pretty, like me :)

2011-09-28T09:27:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Browsing to the tumblr and also the blog. I wonder who's the owner. All I can say is Subhanallah. Most of the post reflecting my feelings. And so, I'm touched by one of the post. It suits me well and it makes me think that it is okay for not being pretty. I'm not saying that I'm not grateful for what Allah had grants me with, in fact Alhamdulillah. I'm happy with who I am right now :)

Well, well, well, I took this post from http://ourwaytojannah.blogspot.com. Tak berniat untuk curi the post from sesiapa but I just want to share. People say, sharing is caring and it's not wrong to share something that should be shared :)

Bismillah wa Alhamdulillah,

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I don’t have the most perfect skin.

I’m sorry I don’t look like a Victoria Secrets model

I’m sorry I don’t have the best style.

I’m sorry I’m not tall.

I’m sorry I’m not perfectly skinny- 5’7 nor 100 pounds.

I’m sorry I have stretch marks here and there.

I’m sorry I have bad hijab days.

I’m sorry that I’m plain.

I’m sorry my eyebrows aren’t thin and perfectly trimmed.

I’m sorry my face isn’t caked in make-up.

I’m sorry that I can never meet society’s standards.

But you know what?

I don’t need to care about society’s criteria.

I don’t need people to tell me I’m beautiful.

I don’t need compliments to make me feel better.

I don’t need a superficial love that can’t withstand a stretch mark here or chub there.

I don’t need to keep sinking into a never ending pit of low self-esteem.

Because I looked to Allah, and He told me the perfect recipe to be Beautiful.

Not just temporarily, but forever.

“And the servants of the Most Merciful are those who walk upon the earth easily, and when the ignorant address them [harshly], they say [words of] peace,…” [25:63]

“And [they are] those who, when they spend, do so not excessively or sparingly but are ever, between that, [justly] moderate [25:67]

“And he who repents and does righteousness does indeed turn to Allah with [accepted] repentance. And [they are] those who do not testify to falsehood, and when they pass near ill speech, they pass by with dignity. And those who, when reminded of the verses of their Lord, do not fall upon them deaf and blind. And those who say, "Our Lord, grant us from among our wives and offspring comfort to our eyes and make us an example for the righteous.” Those will be awarded the Chamber for what they patiently endured, and they will be received therein with greetings and [words of] peace.” [25:71-75]

Ya Allah, when the world criticizes me a million times over

Ya Allah, when the world keeps telling me hurtful things

Ya Allah, when the world keeps pushing “ugly” at me.

Give me the courage to hold firm to your Deen.

Ya Allah, as long as I am beautiful to you, nothing else matters.

Ya Allah, even when everyone leaves my side, let me take comfort in the fact that
You are closer to me than my jugular vein [50:16]

A beautiful reminder :')

2011-09-26T10:11:00.000+08:00

Salam
I found this blog from one of my friend and yes, I cry when I read the post. It touched my heart and I decided to share it with you, yes YOU :) Well, you can go to this blog (click here) for more awesome posts :)

"Dear sister,

I know its hard. I know you look at the pictures of the models and the celebrities and wonder why you can’t look like them? I know it physically hurts to sometimes refrain yourself from plucking those brows or to put on that hijab and abaya. I know how it feels when your best friends are extremely pretty [Mashallah] and you’re standing next to them, feeling like nothing. I know how much complements and attention can light up your face. I know sometimes you have to give up being able to wear a certain thing because it isn’t appropriate. I know it gets hard to walk outside with no make up on, with your natural face, thinking it’s not good enough and all of your flaws are showing. I know.

You know what else I know? I know you’re beautiful, regardless of what you think of yourself. I know that even the slightest inclination of pleasing Allah in yourself increases that beauty ten-fold and I know that when Allah finds you beautiful, it’s all that matters. You’re not doing this for the world, remember? You’re not even doing it for yourself.

Imagine your beauty on the Yawm al Akhirah when your face would be glowing and radiant with noor, when you would be more beautiful than the hoor and you would realize that it was this world really wasn’t worth the drool.

Dear sister, I’m proud of you."

-Asra F.

May Allah keep us firm in His Deen, May Allah make our good deeds heavy on the scale, and May we all attain Jannah, inshAllah.

-Destination Jannah

Bercerita tentang cinta.

2011-09-19T13:47:00.001+08:00

Salam.

I hope everybody is dong well. May Allah blessed each and everyone of us :) Bila bercerita tentang cinta. Apa yang nak diceritakan? Cer citer. Hahaha. First of all, in my humble opinion, love comes with responsibilities. Jadi, to bercinta is quite hard actually. That's what I think laaa. I've experienced to be in the relationship, once but not the kind that i mentioned earlier. It was some funny, lame moments in my life. I'm regretting it. Yes, saya menyesal but it's too late already because it happened. I can't turned back time kan? That relationship thing is the worst that could happen. I did not love him and I did not know why I have a relationship with him. LAME ! -___- It happens when your nafsu tells you to do so. Its fun laa kan having a boyfriend. Everyday text you until you have no time to call your parents. *BAD DAUGHTER* You delay your study and so forth. So, it was ridiculous. RIDICULOUS. You know what I mean, kan? I can't believe I've been there and hopefully not again. Well, kalau or if someone right come along the way okayla, why not. Haha. The truth is, I want a love after marriage. Sounds so nice and very hmm *i can't actually find a word to describe it* :p I believe there's a soulmate for everyone. Semua dah ditentukan Allah s.w.t., when the time comes, the right person akan muncul and you'll be happily ever after :) The love yang kita cari nanti will come as they said good things always come for those who wait and I'll wait patiently.

So for those yang always merungut because you did not have a boyfriend, don't worry! Your time will come and by that time, you will say It's worth the wait ;)

2011-09-15T09:53:00.001+08:00

2011-09-15T09:33:00.003+08:00

“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”
― Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper

I call her Yam :)

2011-09-07T22:31:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Hello lovelies. It's been a while since the blog is updated. I would just say I have nothing to write about. There's a lot of things happening to me but I just can't seems to write. But, tonight I feel like writing something. This post is dedicated to my dearly Maryam Arina. Lets just say, I called her Yam. My awesome, cute, funny, intelligence, and a very good friend of mine.

I met her 2 and a half years ago. She was my classmate back then in KMB. I thought she was garang at first. She hardly smile and always kept this bluur expressions on her face. One time I tried to talked to her (it was my first time). It was a smooth conversation at first and the next day when in class she don't even remember that I was talking to her last night. She hardly recognize me actually that time. As so, I don't know how we become close. We become best friend and we did almost every single things together.

She always come to my room to online, that was before she had her broadband with her in the college. Still, after she had her broadband, she still come to my room. We talk, we eat, gossiping around and laughing our ass off. I do often come to her room as well. Sembang sembang and stuff.

Let's just say, we spend our two years together as a best friend. We hardly fight. I mean mungkin tak pernah lagi. I don't know, and I hope never :) Now, this girl is flying off to Dundee, Scotland and I'm like miles away from her in Australia (soon). I'm going to miss her and her affections towards Korea.

Dear Maryam, if youre reading this I wanted you to know that I'm glad I have you as my best friend :) Thanks Allah I found you. Boyfriend? You'll meet him there, somewhere in Dundee. HAHA. And, bila dah jumpa, do inform me. Bagitau laaa aku nie, boleh tengok tengok buat pesanan anank cucu. Kalau ada rezeki, aku datang Dundee visit kau :) Thank you for being awesome, love and thank you for having me as your friend. i love you Maryam <3

We actually masuk group sama to do this boxes :)

She's my Surau gang :)

Kesimpulannya, she's my everything. My study mate, my makan mate, my TV mate (Juvana), adn mostly she's my mate that Allah's had send to me :)

"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down"

And yes, you did it :)

Love,
Ainun <3

Be grateful for what you have

2011-09-02T12:23:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Raya experience was awe-inspiring. I learn lots of thing. I learn that you should be grateful for what you have. On the first raya, family's of Rasdi well not all, few of the family went to visits our sedara mara and we come to this one house. The lights are dim, and the environment looks pretty awful. When I stepped in, sudden feelings of bereaved blows me. The grieve look in the face, add the sorrowful moment.

A tough women she is, I said to myself. She take care of her husband who is half stroke. When everyone wear glamorous baju kurung and happy celebrating raya, she sat in the house wearing worn out clothes and sat besides her other half. She cried when people console her, yes. She wouldn't want any sympathy's but she needs someone who actually understand her, and support her. When I come to think about it, how did she managed? She did not have a stable job, apart of taking care of her husband, she take care of her brother. Siblings are running apart, nowhere to be found. Alone, using all her strength left, she managed.

***

All this while, I've been complaining. I should be grateful for what I have because other people experience the worse. As I ponder upon, I have a great life, supportive and loving family, and awesome friends. Being grateful is the least that I can do. So people, let us be happy for what we have now, and who we are with. Allah can take it away from you anytime. So, Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah. I've been blessed all this while. Please help them who needs and give them strength to live. Amin :)

Raya oh Raya :)

2011-09-02T02:02:00.004+08:00

Salam.

So, sekarang everyone is sooo in the mood of raya. lagu raya merata rata alam. So, sewaktu raya yang gembira bira that day, my family went to snap snap few pictures laaa. (few?) well, just having some fun because probably next year, i may not celebrating raya in Malaysia :( Okay, takpelaaa, anyways, raya is sooo fun! I got lotss of duit raya eventhough I'm like almost 20. Ceh, bangga sekejap. First day, raya rumah opah buat nasi beriyani kambing. OMG, sangat sedap. Well, mungkin sebab I yg do most of the cooking kan. eceewaaahhh. Then makan makan, keluar rumah dua tiga tapak then tangkap gambar. And now, I miss the awesomeness of the people there :( Andak, Yeid, Cikyang, Opah, and etc. ramai sgt nak sebut. HAHA Then the raya continues at kampung sebelah ayah :) And, i tell you, seronoklaaa! i love the people there, so fun and awesome :) Dekat sana, you can never feel hungry even for a second. banyak makanan and they like ask you to eat until you kenyang. Then malam malam, mesti tengok cerita hantu while everyone tergolek golek in front of tv atas toto. tahu tak toto tu apa? (google it people) And after that, duit raya time! Semua org will be tadah tangan and salam with aunties and uncles. I think this year is the most memorable one kot. I think I appreciate every single moments that I have in both my kampung :) Disini, kita selitkan fews of the pictures and the rest is in fb :)

2011-08-29T00:03:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-08-28T14:20:00.001+08:00

Gambar pelita adalah ikhsan google and the rest I edited myself :) Happy Raya everyone!

Double post. I LOVE FOOD

2011-08-28T14:02:00.003+08:00

Saja gedik today nak post lots of stuff especially food. That day breakfasting at TGI was a blast and lagi best because dengan sepupu yang sangat awesome. So, let the feast begin ;)

My salad. Dapat free with main course :)

Soupaaaa. Tomato soup kot. Tak surelaaa apa nama, tapi rasa tomato. HAHA

Muizz with his hungraayyy face. Grrr. Hihihi

Let's see

My main course sizzlinnn HOT ! Hehehe.

Athirah's foooooood ;)

The food was okay. Not badlaaa. i mean sedap okay. Should come here more often lah. All i can say is good food, good time, and good company :)

Okay, dah. bye !

Happy RAYA ! :)

* Kuih Raya ;)

2011-08-28T13:30:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Hellooooooo peeps! HAHA, I finally found the pictures walaupun sekeping dua dan kualiti kamera memang sangat menyedihkan. Al maklumlah I tak pakai BB ataupun phone canggih yg pixel camera mencapai 10 mega pixel kan. Haaaaaa :) So, kuih yang i buat actually adalaa a few and yang I sempat ambil and jumpa is cornflakes madu. bak kata Syed, kuih nie sedap. Ceh, kata dialaaa. Dia kata okay, I tak kata. Tapi, I kata sangat sedap! Ngeh! Ingredients are very simple which only cornflakes, honey, sugar, and butter :) Yang lain rasa extra is love. Okay, kita letak kasih sayang sambil mengacau adunan kuih tu. Hehehehe.

Hah, lihatlah. Camera ala ala gedik je kan. Hehehehe. tapi, itulaaa kuih yg kita buat. alaaa kadar kadar je. tahun depan bolehlaaa order tapi kita dah tak ada dekat Malaysia so probably kita buat di negara orang je laaa kan.

Sebelum merapu. Byee people :) Nak lipat kain yg bertambun lagi nie -,-

*Beautiful :)

2011-08-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Adoi, memang berjanggutlaaa nak tunggu blog ini di update oleh kerana masalah keketatan masa (ada ke ayat tu). YES, sangat busy. Now, baru habis kemas rumah and again YES, sangat penat. Tengoklaa takat takat mana boleh tulis kan. Hehehehe. Oh, lupaaa. Selepas kepenatan buat kuih, I went to Penang and meet my lovelyy cousins Athirah and Muizz which I could say they are super duper awesomee ! Hehehe. Beronggeng ronggeng liddat :p Lots of places visited and meet lost of people. Mat salleh terutamanyaaa. HAHA. My post of kuih raya will not be forgotten. Sekejap je because I couldn't find the picture of kuih that I dah snap snap =,=" So, tengok gambar pergi holiday dulu. Ceh, pergi bulan puasa yg paling tak tahan sekali. Hihihi

At Lone Pine, such a beautiful place. Semua patut datang sini ;)

Athirah sayaaaang ;)

Excited duduk dalam kereta. HAHAHA. Padahal pening sbb pusing pusing Batu Feringgi

Ceh, dua dua bajet nak model pose dekat sini. Konon Chanel face. HAHAHA. with Muiz ;)

Itu jelaa gambar yang ada. Yang lain malas nak upload sebab internet like siput. Hehehehe. well, itu sahaja untuk kali ini but i think Penang is super nice because I like beaches and i want my house ada view pantai. But, I don't like a few thingslaaa there tapi, who cares kan. I better chow sebab nak cari gambar kuih yg dah M.I.A -,- Benci betul. sometimes technology can be very annoying. Till then people, Bye !

Missed :)

2011-08-22T12:36:00.002+08:00

Salam.

OMG, dah sawang sawang dah blog nie. Lama rasanyaa tak update. Well, not like I merajuk or what so ever but I busy tolong ibu buat kuih raya and nak kena meet demand org yang order. So, berhempas pulas for 5 days buat kuih after sahur until zohor untuk siapkan all of it. So, by the time online dah letih nak tulis dah. Hehehe. So, tidur sebab selain puasa, energy dah tak ada. Lepas asar kena masak berbuka pulak kan? :) Today, kerana rasa rindu nak memblogging, lalu gagahkan diri laaa jugak. Ramadhan is just about to end. Sedihnyaaa. Raya is coming :) But, Raya is not the exciting part here. Tahun ni raya serba sederhana because tahun ni tak beli baju raya pun. Alaa alaa kadar je. Pakai je mana yang ada. Hmm, I think in my next post, I'll blog about kuih that I made yg sampai tak sempat terus nak blog nie. So, I miss you blog :) happy fasting everyone. Bye !

*sigh

2011-08-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

Until now, you still did not realize. Tweeter is our only way of communicating. I'm sad, yes, I am.

Mimpi indah

2011-08-11T01:33:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Selesai sudah solat Terawih di surau and I enjoyed it. Sangat :) Plus, after that ada tazkirah sikit. Okaylaa, untuk mengisi hati yang kosong nie ;) Well well well, selepas makan moreh yg menyebabkan tangan melecur sedikit. I sit in front of my laptop to do my daily routine. Online laaaa, what else kan. So, tiba tiba I suddenly think of what I will be in the next 10 years. Eceh, gaya soalan interview PMC kan. I mean, not medical relatedlaa of course. Myself like what would my car be and etc.

First, dalam masa 10 tahun akan datang, I'll probably dah jadi specialist dah kan. mestilah orang dah panggil me as Dr. Ainun. Heeeeeee :) InsyaAllah yee. Mungkin, i mean like 90% laaaa, I want to become O&G specialist (obstetrician and gynecologist) atau dalam melayu nye orang kata pakar perbidanan. Ecewahhh. Pray for me okay. Pleaseee do so (sangat tak malu disini mintak orang doakan). Oleh kerana kurangnya doktor bidan melayu wanita. So, my ibu dah pesan awal awal and after having some readings and stuff as well as conversations, I think yeah why not.

Macam nilaaa kot rupa doctor but am wearing hijjab laaaa of course kan :)

Second, by that time. Kita pun akan ada kereta sendiri. Haaaaaa. I LOVE BMW like gilaaaaa suka. Hopefully, I'll get one of it :) nak tengok? nak tengok? Heee

Tadaaaaaaaaa ! HAHAHAHA

Third, I should have a house jugak. I want a penthouse ! (gila kaya sangatlaaa kau kan nak penthouse bagai) HAHA. Tp, bak kata orang if you want something, insyaAllah you'll get it.

OMG, cantikkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan?

Lastly, kalau ada jodohlaaa kan. Mestilaaah kita dah ada one happy familyyy ;) I supposed at that time I have a handsome, beriman, and not to mention a romantic husband? Heeeee (beranagan lagi)

See that? Haaaaa. Gambar hanya cartoon untuk tontonan umum

hubby? HAHAHAHA. Dream on ciknun ;)

Oh, lupaaaaa. Mungkin dah ada anak jugak tak sorang dua sebab waktu tu dah umur 30 kan? Bahahaha. Oleh kerana dia berdarah campuran, so muka jadi like thislaaaa

Baaaaaah! Comel gilaaaa boleh tak budak nie? :)

So, itu jelah so far my mimpi indah. What I will be in 10 years. Probably, for some of you mungkin ini kelakar dan tidak masuk akal but who knows kan? Everything is possible in this world because Allah ada. Sekelip mata je Allah boleh buat benda from impossible to possible. Hehehe. Alright people, I have my own mimpi indah. You? Do you have one? Tak salah mimpi kann. Till then. Bye !

Fooooooooooooooooooood :)

2011-08-10T09:55:00.006+08:00

Okay, gilaaaa looser dalam sehari dua tiga post kan nak letak. Kerja rumah byk lagi but sibuk nak update blog nie lagi -.- whattodoooo :p

Before this western food now malaysian food, okay takdelaaa malaysian sangat sebab ada ikan tiga rasa. Fusionlaaaa kot.

Kailan ikan masin :)

Ikan siakap tiga rasa :) (after long day at pasar cari ikan yg murah yet segar) *ceh*

Family feast :)

Mc menawan chicken burger :)

2011-08-10T09:49:00.002+08:00

Salam.
Okay, sudah sudahlaaaa sedih kan cik Jah. Now, back to business laaaa. Yesterday, sewaktu berbuka puasaaa. I decided to make homemade burger. Ni semua gara gara tgk food tumblr =,= Hehehe. So, at 3 pm, pergilaaa berjalan jalan di Tesco untuk beli baranglaaa sikit sikit untuk buat homemade burger kann.
So, disini dengan sukanitanya saya akan sertakan gambar gambar yg appropriate untuk tontonan umum. HAHAHA :)

So, first mestilah daging burger kena ada kalau tak buat apa kan

Sizzle sizzle. Frying :)

So, it became like this. Tengok dalam tumblr pun like hangus liddat :) Tapi, taklaaa hangus just garing je. Yummy :)

Coleslaw :)

Sayur sayuran and cheeseeeeeee. Good for your health you know!

Fries.

So, inilah diaaa complete setnyaaa :)

So, happy moments makan with family and andak pun datang as well. First attempt dah succeed. Ecewahh. Ibu kata, kalau belajar tinggi tinggi pun tak tahu masak buat apa. HAHA. Okay, I'll remember it lah ibu :)

2011-08-10T09:33:00.000+08:00

OMG, SEDIHNYAAAA :'(

O' Allah, please help me.

Will this be the last Ramadhan?

2011-08-08T09:04:00.003+08:00

Salam.

Its never been too late to talk about Ramadhan. As I promised, I'll post something about what i've read in Solusi. To be honest, reading the articles make me ponder upon who I've been for the past 20 years I lived as a Muslim. When I was a kid, Ramadhan was a blast because my sister and I are counting days to raya. The fasting part was just I would say a routine. Like ultimatum. Not to mention that I did fasting, I do solat and all. It's just that that raya part comes first.

I then here will summarize what I've read. Its about who we are when Ramadhan come to us. How we handle things when Ramadhan say hello. What would happen if this is the last Ramadhan? Are we freaking ready, people? As i read, lots of things are running through my mind. Everything's come like a flashback. I remember every single thing that I've done. How are we celebrating Ramadhan this year? Not even 2 weeks Ramadhan came, we had started to think about what to wear during Raya. langsir barulah, perabot barulah. Everything has to be baru. The thing that we supposed to do is left behind. Ramdhan ini, pintu taubat terbuka. Pintu syurga Allah terbuka luas untuk hamba-hambanya. This is the time for us to chase it and kumpul as much pahala as we can but, did we tkae the chance? Did we?

Jika ini Ramadhan terkahir kita, layakkah kita untuk menginjak syurga Allah? Sudah bersediakah kita untuk berhadapan dengannya. Bulan yang penuh rahmat ini hanya datang sebulan sekali. This is for me to ponder upon as well. People might say, Syawal pun datang setahun hanya sekali but, its different with Ramadhan. Actually, I could like talk a lot but i might leave it so that people can think. my writing may not be that good. In fact, tak bagus pun but just to share something. Just to ask few little question that should be answered by each and everyone of us, Muslims. I leave it here. Till then.

Love and salam Ramadhan people :)

Hari hari jadi suri. Suri apa? Suri rumahlaaaaa ;)

2011-08-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Salam Ramadhan people. I hope everybody is in a good mood today. Hari ni adalah hari keempat Ramadhan :) Dalam bulan Ramadhan ini, saya ingin cakap sikitlah sebelum memulakan cerita. harapnya kita semua dapat manfaat dari Ramadhan. Allah s.w.t juga pernah berfirman bahawa pada bulan ini pintu pintu syurga dibuka dan pintu neraka pula ditutup. Jadi, jom kita ramai ramai cari pahala okay. Jadikanlah Ramadhan ini lebih bermakna dari sebelumnya and alsoooooooo, make it as titik permulaan untuk perubahan yg kita belum, sudah, sedang, atau bakal buat yeee :)

Okay okay, itu sedikit pesanan penaja. HAHA. Hari ini genaplaaaa 2 bulan duduk di rumah. Lagi 2 hari Graduation day aaaaaaand, ingin diumumkan bahawa saya dgn officialnya akan menjadi bibik atau pembantu rumah atau nama sedap sikit suri rumah untuk 6 bulan setengah akan datang.

Ceh, seronoklaaaa liddat jadi suri rumahkannnn ;)

(gambar ihsan Google)

Oleh kerana saya masuk University agak lewat dari rakan rakan yang lain jadi, memanglaaaa jadi suri rumahlaa jawabnyaa. Anyways, I do enjoy this work. Well, seronoklaaa kemas kemas ni and lepas tu rasa nak senyum lebar lebar bila tgk everything tersusun rapi and cleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. HEHE.

Haaaaa, like thislaaaa bilik tidur kalau ada suri rumah berwawasan ni. Bajetlaaakan bilik kau macam ni

Okay, ni pun samalaaaa jugak tapi sah sahlaaa bukan rumah I kannn. HAHA

(ihsan Google)

I do not worry much on getting jobs because InsyaAllah ibu kata dia akan bagi allowance every month (which dah bagi pun) and alhamdulillah cukuplaaaa untuk berjoli joli untuk sebulannn. Okay, bukanlaaa joli sangat tapi yelaaaakan.

Ramai kata jadi suri rumah ni senang. Duduk rumah kemas kemas rumah je. Lepas tu boleh lepak lepak duduk rilex liddat and masak lepastu makan. Masuk kerja pulak tak ada time macam orang kerja office. Hmmm, you are sooooo wrong. jadi suri rumah ni is veryy penat you know. Adoi, bangun pagi pagi masak breakfast. pergi pasar beli ikanlaaa apalaaa, lepastu balik rumah kemas biliklaaa, stretch katil semua, basuh kain, jemur kain, lipat kain, vacuum bilik dan sapu halaman rumah tu. Tak lupa jugak kena basuh pinggan, kemas dapur and it goes onnn laaaa selagi ada kerja. Plus, I wonder howlaaaa ibu yang ada anak tu jaga anak siap buat all this thing. Letih tau takkk. I, myself yang tak kahwin dan tak ada anak ni pun dah rasa letih. Well, memanglaa kerja ni letih kan, semua kerja pun letih in fact. Takdelaaa merungut tapi hakikatnyaaa nak bagitahu how great they are (the suri rumah) No wonder laaaa org selalu kata suri di hati ku. (Okay, mungkin tak ada kaitan kan) =,='

Gayalaaaa kan nak buat muka cute like this fikir nak masak apa untuk berbuka =,=' (lagi sekali)

Mungkin post ini tak berapa nak memberangsangkan. Sorry people :( Cuma sajalaaaa nak meluahkan kata kata sikit. Yesterday i read SOLUSI about Mungkinkah ini Ramadhan Terakhir. So, insyaAllah I'll write about it on my next post, okay? Salam Ramadhan again people ! :)

Kerana Allah sentiasa ada

2011-08-02T10:11:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Perasaan sedih tak habis lagi. Hari pertama Ramadhan terasa sayu. Segala yang berlaku menyentuh hatiku, tapi Allah ada untuk memujukku. Aku menyelak tafsir al-Quran dan Allah tunjuk ayat ini.

" Dan aku tidak tahu, boleh jadi hal itu cobaan bagi kamu dan kesenangan sampai waktu yang ditentukan." (al-Anbiya', ayat 111)

" Dia (Muhammad) berkata, Ya Tuhanku, berilah keputusan dengan adil. Dan Tuhan kami Maha Pengasih, tempat memohon segala pertolongan atas semua yang kamu katakan." (al-Anbiya', ayat 112)

Ya Allah, bantulah hamba hambaMu yang berada dalam kesulitan Ya Allah. Amin.

Yeay Finally :)

2011-07-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

Salam.

Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah finally I already received an email from Newcastle University. So, sebelum ni I still felt unsure laaa like am I going to Australia ? Macam tu sekali kannn. Now, it is a sure :)

Happy Face :) *wink*

It is with GREAT PLEASURE that I am forwarding to you an offer for a place in a program at the University of Newcastle ;) Thank you Allah

Well, it is still conditional offer though. To get unconditional kena isi online form which is yet to be done. But still Alhamdulillah :)

Tapi apa pun, semua ini datang dari Allah. Dia yang memberi kita dan berkuasa atas segala-galanya. Mudah-mudahan alah mempermudahkan segala-galanya. Thank you, Allah :) And I think I will never feel bored on thanking Allah for giving me all the nikmat and not to let me astray from Him. InsyaAllah :)

* Cinta teragung

2011-07-28T01:34:00.001+08:00

Salam.

Setiap hari aku diberi peluang untuk bernafas dengan percuma, tanpa satu sen bayaran. Setiap hari aku bangun dan diberi lagi peluang untuk melihat orang orang yang paling aku sayang. Setiap hari juga aku dipenuhi dengan rezeki dan nikmat yang tidak ternilai harganya.

Aku seorang Muslim. Tertulis pada kad pengenalan seorang Muslim. Gadis muslim dan ya, aku bangga menjadi sebahagian dairpada keluarga Islam dan bangga menjadi Muslim. Tapi, aku terfikir adakah bangga itu cukup untuk menjadikan aku seorang Muslimah ? Aku pernah tinggal solat, aku mungkin telah mengguris hati kedua ibu bapaku, aku mungkin juga pernah mengguris hati guru guruku, rakan rakan ku. Aku lalai ketika dimanjai dengan nikmat dunia. Aku lupa dari mana datangnya nikmat itu. I do sins. YES I do and bangga tak akan dapat menjadikan aku seorang muslimah. Tak akan dapat menjadikan aku seorang Muslim yang selama ini aku banggakan. Aku malu pada diri sendiri. Hanya cakap kosong. Berusaha tetapi mungkin agak sambil lewa.

Setiap kali aku merintih, waktu itu sejadah dan al Quran menjadi teman yang paling setia. Dan pada saat itu, aku merasa seolah olah Allah begitu dekat padaku. Seolah Allah membelaiku dan menenangkan jiwaku. Setiap titisan air mataku diusapkan dengan ketenangan hati. "Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa hamba-Mu ini yang kerdil lagi hina ya Allah. Ampunkanlah dosa kedua ibu bapaku ya Allah, guru guruku, rakanku, keluargaku dan seluruh umat Islam ya Allah. Ya Allah berikanlah aku ketenangan hati. Kuatkanlah semangatku. Pinjamkanlah padaku kekuatan rasulmu Muhammad s.a.w ya Allah "
Dan itu adalah bait bait doanya. Allah mendengar doa tersebut, insyaAllah.

Suatu hari aku tersentak, banyak betul dosa yang telah aku lakukan. Mungkin aku tidak sengaja ataupun secara sengaja, Allah tetap dekat dgn hambanya. Allah tetap berlembut dengan hambanya walaupun telah melakukan dosa yang amat besar sekali pun. Bayangkan, kita manusia jika barang kepunyaan kita rosak, terus kita akan lempar jauh jauh. Tapi, Allah tidak begitu. Tidak sesekali dia membuang hambanya. Aku sedar betapa byk hidayah dan perlindungan yg telah Allah berikan padaku. Terlalu byk. Setiap kali aku mungkin terpesong dan lalai, akan ada sesuatu yang menyedarkan aku. Subhanallah, sayangnya Allah pada hambaNya.

Aku mengira hari untuk Ramadhan. Ramadhan penuh dengan nikmat dan rahmat Allah. Aku mengharapkan ini ramadhanku yang terbaik dan Ramadhan kali ini adalah permulaan untuk masa lalai aku suatu masa dulu. Friends, make this Ramadhan useful and try to grab as many pahala as we can. Allah sentiasa memberi peluang pada hambaNya. This is my chance to be a better persons and you too. Perhaps we should just start from this moment ;)

p/s : and ohh, my cinta teragung is Allah s.w.t laaaaaa kan ? What else

Bye peeps. Assalamualaikum. May today is better than yesterday and be grateful that you're Muslim :)

* Wedding ;)

2011-07-24T22:51:00.004+08:00

Salam.

You know, I just love weddings. Seronok tgk orang jadi cantik like princess <3. I just get back form my uncle's wedding and I felt awesome sebab berjaya buat hantaran although it is not that gorgeouslaaa like Pak Abu kann, but still I'm satisfied and of course with the help of ibu and kaknyah. (actually, ibu yang put lots of effort like a lottt okay. i was just apart of it jee)

Basically, some of the hantaran that me and ibu gubah ;)

Ring :)

Perfume and konco konconya. HAHA ;)

Kain with white roses ;)

Longchamp handbag ;)

Shoe ;)

This is my uncle, we called him Yeid. Wierd much eh? HAHA

Here's the lovely bride Aunty Eika. She's so pretty laaaa ;)

After nikah <3 Happy Wedding

Reception. So Royal like that :)

Family picture. Sadly, I was not in because I busy taking other people's picture.

Well, that's it for the update. I'll update for the wedding in kampung pulak ;) Soon.

* Idea zaman sekarang

2011-07-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Batuk batuk kerana sudah lama tak update. Duhhh, dasar malas kan. Recently, I kinda love radio probably kerana asyik berjalan ke sana ke mari and travelling all the way to Kuala Lumpur for some real busy business. I just heard this advert about gemuk. it sounds pretty much like this "gemuk, gemuk, gemuk. Eh, tgk anak dia gemuklaaaa... and yadaa yadaa yadaaa" Lebih kurang like thatlaaaa kan.

I am not condemning anybody but I just thought (my opinion really doesn't matter btw) that that kinda advert should be more not offensive. Tak kiralaaaa the iklan tentang gemuk ke or even worst cerita about people's weaknesses. It was not a good idea laaa for me. Okay, kembali ke advert gemuk tadi. I don't say it because I gemuk and felt offended or whatsoever but, there's a lot more way to actually sampaikan the actual message. The idea of the advert is to convey a message saying to actually control what you eat and live a healthy lifestyle but it turns out to be the other way round. People don't actually get the idea. That kind of idea is tooo "brainless" i could say. Try to do some more educational kinda advert. Idea tu kasi laaa brilliant sikit. I mean in a smart way. Insulting is not a good idea of educating and conveying messages that is important I would say.

Ibu said, mungkin itu idea orang zaman sekarang untuk sampaikan message tanpa pedulikan mana mana pihak.

And i said, advert should be natural in a way semua orang boleh accept it.

Well, a short post for now untuk babbling. Just get back from wedding and will be updating more on the wedding ;)

Bye peeps <3

* once upon a time

2011-07-12T18:46:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time, in a far away land live one girl named Aiana. She was shy and not really smart at that time. She lived with her parents and also three of her sister. She went to school and was the least favourite student. She have no idea how maths work. She even fail to divide 10 by 5. I mean, how dumb was that? She can only get the highest mark of 50% on every maths test in the school until madam Rahiey thought that OMG, what actually happen to you. That's how stupid she is at maths. At that times, she hardly even know to speak English. She can only know to say Hello, Good Morning, good night and simple stuff like that. Even, she spoke like a *****. She was sad and decided to change her life. As so, she worked hard to prove that she is not dumb. Like seriously, working freaking hard. Then again, she passed the exam but not really excellent I must say.

She continue her life with more determination. She says "I don't wanna be stupid. i don't wanna be the pain in the ass to my parents". That word really push her up to a higher level and then, she managed to get into boarding school. Its an achievement I would say. Boarding school life was so different. There, she learns little bit about life. She fall in love, she fought with friends and then they became best friend for sure, she laughed and she also cry. She's eager to learn and very determine but one day something happen and it actually change her.

One day in class, a teacher is talking about career thingy which caught her attention. She want to become a doctor and she knows she want it badly. The sad part is the teacher said like this. "In this class, I can see few future doctor's." She was excited because she thought she is one of the "future doctor's" mentioned earlier. Then, the teacher pointed out "You, you, you, you, and you I can say will be a future doctor's". She was not in the "you" list. The worst thing is that she is the only one that is not being pointed. She questioned herself. The least she want to hear is the hope that probably that teacher can give to her. Something that can actually motivate her. She did not give up however, she know she can do it. She know it, deep down. She will prove to the teacher that "You are so wrong, Madam". Final exam is coming and she did passed with flying colour. She went to see the teacher with a few of her friends and surprisingly, the teacher says, "OMG, you passed as well?" Again, heartbroken. She said, "I'll always be dumb, always and forever. I'm not smart and always be. People always look down on me and they will always do"

Until now, she felt that she is not accountable to anybody. People did not care about her, about her opinion or about her idea. People thought that she has the lowest degree of thinking. People don't bother to ask her because she has different opinion than other. She has no match with people who wants to talk about critical issues because she is she. At this moment, she still think that she is she once upon a time.

* yes, i do :)

2011-07-12T00:18:00.003+08:00

; When I suddenly feel like falling in love with I don't even know who. Saja saja rasa. Probably my future husband tu pun feel the same way kot :)

Dear future husband, I do not know where you are and mostly who are you, but this will definitely be a song for you, love :)

It's always been about me myself and I

If all relationships were nothing but a waste of time
I never wanted to be anybody's other half
I was happy to say that our love wouldn't last
That was the only way I knew to that you

You make we wanna say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Yeah, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I can live without it, I can let it go
Ooh, I did, I get myself into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Tell me is it only me
Do you feel the same?
You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games
I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down
You can trust and never feel it now
Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
Wooh Can I get myself into
You make we wanna say

Me a family, a house a family
Ooh, can we be a family?
And when I'm old and sit next to you.

And when we remember when we said
I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo
Cause every time before we spend like
Maybe yes and maybe no
I won't live without it, I won't let it go
Just look at what we got ourselves into
You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,
Love you <3

p/s : okay, kita rasa looser sekarang =,=

* kitataksukaaaaaaaaaaaa

2011-07-11T02:32:00.001+08:00

okay, itu je kita nak cakap. Tulisan kecik saja bagi taknak bagi nampak ;)

* I can't stop smiling :)

2011-07-09T22:04:00.006+08:00

Salam.

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, and Alhamdulillah. Finally, my placement is finalised. And finally, I can pursue my dream which is to be a doctor :) Moga Allah permudahkan segalanya, amin. The journey is long and hard. Along the way, terlalu banyak air mata. Terlalu banyak rejection. All this while, I kept blaming myself. I kept questioning myself.

Betul ini jalan yang aku pilih?
Kenapa diorang tolak aku? Aku tak cukup bagus ke?
Aku tak ada muka medic student ke? Tak layak ke?

And the question went on and on and on. But, still kawan kawan kata have faith in Allah. Someday, you'll get what you want and it is the best from Allah. And, yes I believe that. Setelah melalui penolakan penolakan dari Irish university, memang rasa diri ini looser, malah sangat looser (mungkin sebab orang Ireland tak suka saya kan). Dengan Czech pun kena tolak. Haih =,='. Tapi, rupa rupanya Allah nak simpan yang lagi satu ni. AUSTRALIA :)

Hati saya dah terbuka untuk Aussie. Saya yakin, itulah tempat terbaik untuk saya. University Newcastle had accepted me to be one of their international students for medicine. See, this university believe me. They know I can do medicine in their university. Thank you, newcastle :) With the hardest interview I've ever had in which they have this mini stations with life scenario and what not (because they want to know how you think and who you are, exactly) and also IQ test or i can say "ISAT" kinda test. It's worth the pain :)

Not to mention, my makngah and pakngah yang kata "InsyaAllah dapatla tu kalau ada rezeki". They seem to agak that my rezeki is there. And also, my cousin, Hatim (you can actually visit his blog here ) yang bagi advice di saat saat akhir. i still remember "Jangan takutlaa kakak, dah berapa kali interviewkan. be yourself and rilex. Cakap lepak je" HAHA, that's what he said. And, my ibu yang before pergi says "Okay kakak, good luck. Ibu doakan kakak dari sini" and also ayah yang willing to send me to KL . Thank you people :)

I hope Allah permudahkan segalanya. I want to fly badly and be a good doctor. Can I say, if Tok Sham is till alive, he must be soooo happy. I miss Tok Sham :(

Okay okay, lets just pray for the best. And Australia, here I come :)

Sydney, InsyaAllah :)

Newcastle; I'll "bermastautin" here for the next five years. InsyaAllah

Newcastle part two :)

And, this will be the place untuk menuntut ilmu :) insyaAllah

p/s: gambar di atas adalah ihsan Google sebab nak ada slight preview of this place.

Oh oh, by the way, my roommate Arlina Arshad is accepted as well. Doakan kitorang :)

* Habis pahala dengan menyumpah

2011-07-08T08:34:00.003+08:00

Salam.

Mula mula better off to start with Astaghafirullahalazim. Oleh kerana hari ni hari Jumaat. penghulu segala hari, harapannya adalah untuk menjadikan hari ini lebih baik dari hari sebelumnya dan akan minimise kan dosa dosa yang mungkin tidak disengajakan seperti mengumpat dan lain lain. Tetapi, biasalaa bila kita dah berazam nak berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, mesti adalah punya cabaran yang melanda. yang paling penting, cabarannya tak adalaa susah mana macam kena kejar anjing ke, atau yang sewaktu dengannya kan. Saja je nak over emo sikit. Tapi, karangan ini juga adalah sebahagian luahan rasa hati (eceh, ayat nak melankolik je kan) dan juga peringatan pada diri sendiri dan juga pada orang lain (kalau ada yang baca).

Pertamanya, memanglaa saya tak faham. Kenapa kalau nak ambil anak atau nak hantar anak kena parking kereta betul betul depan sekolah tu? Kalau ada laluan kereta boleh masuk terus sekolah mcm drive thru McD tu agak agak berderet laaa kereta kan. And, kalau yang tak boleh blah nye parking sampai 40 jam semata mata nak tunggu anak yang akan keluar kelas dalam masa 40 minit lagi. Jadinya, jam jalan tu. Faham tak, jam ! tension tau tak. Adoilaaa. Puan puan, encik encik, bapak bapak, dan ibu ibu. Silalah jangan park kereta anda di tengah tengah jalan yang akan block satu kawasan Taiping tu. Alahai. kalau anak balik pukul 1, jgnlaa datang 40 minute in advance, lepas tu parking dkt tgh tgh kawasan, habis orang lain yang nak lalu ni macam mana? Terpaksa anak org lain lintas jalanlaaa. Okay, bahaya faham? Tak acila anak pakcik ke makcik dapat keluar pintu gate terus lompat masuk kereta, kalau anak Agung mungkin saya fahamlaaa. Anddd, yang paling penting, kalau nak hantar anak pergi sekolah tu, tak payahla siap payung payung and angkat bag segala siap pimpin tangan sampai masuk classroom, paling penting kereta mereka di park di pertengahan jalan macam biasa. Dulu waktu saya sekolah, ingat lagilaaa. Ibu hantar pergi sekolah tak ada maknanya nak angkat bag. Kau angkatla sendiri yeeee. Independentlaa sedikit. Apa yang lagi membuat darah mendidih adalah, apabila anak mereka sudah selamat berada dalam kereta dan nak blah dari situ, mulalaaa nak hon kereta semua org yg halang kereta. Tak boleh keluar. Haaa, baru padan muka. Like Hello! Padanlaa muka kan parking tgh jln lagi kan, sekarang kau tunggulaa 40 minit lagi mcm mana kau buat org lain.

Orang stressss, tau takkk! Disebabkan inilah pelbagai kata kata yang tidak terlalu enak telah dikeluarkan. Masalah betulla. Okaylaaa, mungkin tak boleh salahkan sesiapa sebab sayang anak tapi berpada-padalaaa kan.

Kita kan, kenalaa consider other people jgk, jadi moral of the story, janganlaaa selfish sangat because bukan kau sorang je yang duduk dalam dunia ni. Banyak lagi manusia lain okay?

* Thank you Allah :)

2011-07-06T20:19:00.003+08:00

This is it. It's final and I am sooooo grateful Syukur, Alhamdulillah. Allah knows what best for me, and there you go :)

All this while, I cried a lot like a lottttttttt ! My life was haywire. I've been rejected. I've failed. And, seriously, I feel like a real looser. But, somehow, He actually saves something for me. Despite of that terrible things, ada hikmah yang Allah simpan which is very ghaib. I can't see it until now.

Cantik betul susunan Allah. Dugaan itu ada hikmahnya, setiap air mata itu ada harganya. At least, aku semakin dekat dengan Allah, Maha Pencipta. Thank you Allah, for this wonderful feeling :)

* Second Glance

2011-07-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

"Heroes didn't leap tall buildings or stop bullets with an outstretched hand; they didn't wear boots and capes. They bled, and they bruised, and their superpowers were as simple as listening, or loving. Heroes were ordinary people who knew that even if their own lives were impossibly knotted, they could untangle someone else's. And maybe that one act could lead someone to rescue you right back."

-Jodi Picoult-

* Hanya monyet yang boleh buang sampah sembarangan

2011-06-26T13:18:00.006+08:00

Salam.

(source from Google)

See that picture? Yang dekat atas tu? Nampak tak? Nampak tak? (okay mestila nampak kan) gambar ini diharap dapat direlatekan oleh anda semua apabila selesai membaca post ini :)

Probably this is my last post for this week because nak balik kampung tolong opah sikit. Okay, tu tak penting sangat (bajet je ada orang baca blog kau kan, HAHA)

Beberapa hari yang lalu, my sister and I keluar untuk membeli burger china town yang sedap. So, we went there by car laaa of course. I decided to just wait in the car because there was no parking available. Park kereta tepi tepi jalan je. As I waited, there's this group of girls (identiti dan bangsa dirahsiakan) walking towards their bikes sambil pegang teh ais kot, if im not mistakenlaa. Their bikes are just in front of my car. So, diorang pandang pandang like i care laaa. But, what i care is that one of them, yang dah habis minum teh ais bungkus tu just throw the plastic betul betul depan my car tanpa ada perasaan bersalah. WTF moment di situ kan. I did not care or pissed off because they throw it in front of my car. Tak calar pun kereta but, buang sampah merata-rata? WTH? (lagi satu disitu) itu, saya tak boleh terima. Puh-leaseeeee. Where the hell is your sensitivity weyh? Ingat tu jalan bapak kau ke kau nak suka hati buang sampah mana-mana kau suka? Sebagai rakyat malaysia yang mementingkan sensitiviti rakyat juga 1 Malaysia, saya dgn sopan membuka lampu kereta setingginya supaya dia silau sikit dan entah kenapa mereka beredar dari situ juga dgn "sopannya".

(source from Google)

Inikah rakyat Malaysia? negara sendiri pun tak sayang. Buang sampah merata-rata. Samalah macam kita buang sampah dekat ruang tamu rumah. Tahu marah kalau rumah sepah, malu tgk dkt orang yang datang rumah kan? Jadi, jalan yang anda selalu jalan ni, tempat anda duduk ni, tak nak pulak jaga.

I'm ashamed. Yes, Very ashamed. malu bila tengok orang buang sampah macam ni. Bayangkan plastik teh ais yang perempuan tu buang siapa yang nak kutip? Kalau saya tak nampak dan kutip, balik balik pak cik MPT jugaklaa yang kutip. Diorang igt pakcik majlis perbandaran tu kuli batak diorang laa yang nak kena kutip sampah everytime diorang buang sampah. Oh, sedih. Cuba kita contoh negara lain. Bukan niat saya untuk bangga dengan negara orang lain dan menjatuhkan negara sendiri. tidak, in fact, i'm proud to be Malaysian. Pernahkan anda lihat orang buang sampah merata-rata di Singapore? atau Australia? UK ke? Honestly, bila pergi Australia dulu, tak pernah pulak nampak orang pergi buang sampah tepi jalan ke apa ke. And, kalau pergi McD di sana, they even throw their rubbish dalam dustbin sendiri. But, in Malaysia pekerja kedai tula yang kena tolong kutipkan.

So please people, do love our country and cintailah alam sekitar kita :) kalau bukan kita, siapa lagi. Even dalam al-Quran pun Allah asks us to protect and love our environment.

"God created nature in a balance("al-mizan") and mankind's responsibility is to maintain this fragile equilibrium through wise governance and sound personal conduct" (2:30)

"And it is He who spread out the earth, and set thereon mountains standing firm and (flowing) rivers; and fruits of every kind he made in pairs, two and two; He draweth the night as a veil over the Day. Behold, verily in these things there are signs for those who consider." (13:3)

Fikir-fikirkanlah. Allah sudah bagi alam untuk kita nikmati dan kita? :)

(Source from Google)

(source from Google)

* Debabs. They made my day ;)

2011-06-24T21:55:00.008+08:00

Camwhore adalah hobi mereka ;)

That little cute rascal (the one with red yg agak terdedah bajunya) is so excited to see her own face.

They are so good at showing their teeth. Say cheeeeeese :D

Gigi lagi. This time over reacted.

I think she found something melekat dekat gigi. HAHAHA :)

Paying attention at twinkle twinkle little star

Tak sia-sia guna Codomo Lion ;)

Confused agaknyaaa.

Lawan pipi siapa paling panjang kalau ditarik. kiraan dalam centimeter

I think this debab is sooo self adore. HAHA :)

* Eeeeewwwwww, kampungnyaaaa.

2011-06-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Pernahkah kita dengar sesuatu macam ini? "Eeeeewwww, kampungnyaaaaa. Gelinyeeee! OMG, disgustingggggg" (sambil buat muka jengkel)

Oh yaaa, saya pernah. So today i just thought of expressing something which i thought really pathetic. yes - PATHETIC. i am sorry to anybody who might or will feel insulted but i did not mean too because its just an opinion. Opinion from me :)

Perkataan seperti kampung, OMG kampung gilerrrr, sooo annoying dan macam-macam lagi adalah sangat inappropriate. It is not wrong to say that to someone yang anda kenal because probably it'll turn out to be some kinda jokes kan? but to some anonymous? I don't think so. kenapa perlu judge cara orang berpakaian? or cara orang make up? or what brand did she or he wear? Why?

Bayangkan anda di mall dan tiba-tiba adalaa beberapa manusia yang berkata begini:

manusia 1: "OMG babe, look at that! Sooo last year okay dress up dia. Tolonglaaa jangan jalan dekat mall ni pakai baju like that. fashion police okay!"

manusia 2: "Goshhh, so trueeee. What baju is that. My goshh, kalau tak reti bergaya tak payahlaa. An, plus make up pun eeeewwwww, make up kampungggggg!"

Apakah ini? Siapa kita untuk judge orang pakai baju, make up dan sebagainya? Up to them to wear what they want. Mereka juga manusia seperti kita semua, seperti saya dan seperti orang lain. And who are we to label them as orang kampung? Kannn? For me, orang kampung pun orang kampunglaaa. At least saya tak mengumpat belakang belakang. Nanti nak minta maaf kan susah bila time nak bertaubat tu. One more, manusia manusia yang sering label melabel orang dan very judgmental ini, you are very beautiful, cantik sangat, dress up gorgeous okay! Tapi, hati anda? Cantik?

Saya tak kata hati saya cantik dan bersih tetapi saya sedang dan selalu mencuba untuk mencantikkannya. jadi, fikir fikirkanlah. Allah sudah menciptakan manusia itu indah dan sangat sempurna. Tiada istilah kampung, tak reti bergaya or what not because the reality is Allah did not see all those things. In the eye of Allah, everyone is equal :) tak kisahlaaa korang pakai baju branded, make up vouge, dress up paris hilton ke but at the end, nanti kita akan pakai kain putih yang tak ada brand pun. Kan?

* Makcik, nasi lemak ni berapa banyak kalori ?

2011-06-22T14:16:00.005+08:00

Salam.

I think I have so much of a leisure time until I felt that I had too much to write about. Well, I was browsing the online Malay Mail just to check out what's happening around me and what not. So, I came across this article about labeling the calorific value on each food in the school canteen. As so, it was announced by our own Health Minister, Datuk Seri Liow Tiong Lai.

Okay, see that? Seriously. Malaysian need to be healthy and according to my research pun, most of Malaysian died of obesity. I think the government did a good job for creating this idea and teach the kids to eat healthy food and have a perfect balanced diet. bak kata orang melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya. kan kan? According to this article, by advising the canteen pakcik and makcik to label their food will help to build a culture of healthy eating and help them learn the importance of good nutrition. I second those. hands up !

But, to what extent this calory thing can help them? (errrr, macam RQ la pulakk) What I mean is that did the kids in the school really understand it? And do they really see those labelling before they buy nuggets or nasi lemak during waktu rehat? Yess, that's the question because it happens to my own sister a.k.a Bab (Debab).

Today I asked her about her canteen. The conversation is more or less like this:

Me : Bab, kantin kamu ada letak calory value dekat food tak?

Bab : Adaaaaaa

Me : aaaahh, so hari ni makan apa dekat kantin?

Bab : Adik makan nasi ayam. Sedap

Me : (gasp) Nasi Ayam?!!! (macamlaa dulu tak pernah makan nasi ayam kan, kecoh je kakak ni). Tengok tak kalori dia berapa?

Bab : Ohhhh, tak. Adik lupa. Tak penting punlaaa kakak. Janji dapat makan. Heeeee

So, Jadi, apakah? Tak penting? What??? Who's to blame? Makcik kantin? Pakcik kantin? My sister aka Bab? Whoooooo?

In this case you can't really blame anybody because its everybody's fault I think. First of all, some may argue and blame government for implementing such a crazy idea. seriously, I've heard it.

" Blergghhhh, letak food calory? habislaa budak budak tak dapat makan" or like this "macamlaaa budak tu hairan, merepek" and it went on and on and onnnn.

and some may blame the makcik and pakcik canteen for selling fast food. Like hello! Anak kau jugak yang suka makan fast food kan. They are just doing their job. Cari makan kasi anak diorang pulak makan. Am i right?

The main things to be highlighted here is actually the eating habit actually comes from home. Parents sometimes teach their kids to eat fast food because probably too busy with work, no time to cook. Fast food is fast and delicious.

Even us, we tend to find something that is easy for us and tastier. we did not care about the value. Probably some of us do care about eating organic food and read the calorie intake but speaking for myself, i don't. So, i myself need to change my eating habits and make my life more healthier :) As so, we as an adult have to introduce good food to them so they can grow up in a healthy way.

am gonna start calculating my calorie intake for today. What say you? have you start? :)

* sahabat :)

2011-06-21T23:45:00.007+08:00

Salam.

Baru lepas facebooking dengan Arlina. Malam ni nak cerita pasal sahabat. Saya tak pernah sedar yang di keliling saya, penuh dengan manusia yang sangat istimewa. Manusia yang sentiasa buat saya tersenyum, without fail okay! Walau saya sedih macam mana punn, ada je lawak mereka untuk pujuk saya. Itulaahhh sahabat saya.

Saya ada banyak sahabat. Kalau nak kira dengan jari memang tak cukup. Meh sini, nak cerita antara sahabat yang selalu ada dengan saya. Tak kiralaaa disusunan mana mereka, mereka tetap nombor 1 okay. kalau diorang baca, walaupun korang diletak paling last, jangan marah yeee.

1. Maryam Arina or Yam Yam

Orangnya serious, eceh. Kalau tak kenal dia laaaaa. Tapi sebenarnya manusia yang penuh dengan perasaan. Selalu jaga hati bestfriend dia (yee, sayalaaa tu). kadang kadang kitorang selalu tak sama pendapat tapi, entah macam tak ada benda punn. Setakat ni tak pernah lagi bergaduh sebab kalau nak gaduh, kitorang gaduh depan depan jeee. Yam, sayang Yam! selalau cakap "Ainun, kau boleh buatlaaa. kau ni belum apa apa dah cakap tak boleh" (dengan muka dia yg serious dan rasa nak kena cekik) HAHA. Paling tak boleh lupa, lepas habis exam dia datang bilik dan kata, "Ainun, aku sedihlaaa. nanti tak jumpa kau dahh. Tak dapat sembang dgn kau, tgk juvana, sembang sambil kau sikat rambut" HAHA itulaaa yamm ni.

2. Arlina Arshad

Macam biasalaaaa. Dia roommate saya. yesss, roommate terchenta. Selalu bagi semangat dekat saya. Kadang kadang rasa bersalah dekat dia sebab saya selalu tak dapat pujuk dia kalau dia menangis. Minta maaf. Tapi, kita betu betul dah try untuk jadi roommate yang baik, okay? Bila periksa, masing masing support each other. Haaaa, janji sama sama akan dapat 45 dan fly pergi Australia. Saya ada, korang ada? :) orangnya lawakk dan always buat saya gelak. Arli, Arli. macam macam yang berlaku but she's strong dan sebab tu saya admire dia supaya jadi kuat jugak. thank you awak ! :)

3. Amni Bahirah

Classmate yang orang kata kitorang macam kembar. Perangai sama. Kawan saya di kelas. Orangnyaaaa lawak. HAHA. Bila ada masalah, Amni selalu ingatkan saya supaya ingat Allah. itulah diaaa. selalau tidur dan makan dekat bilik Amni. Apa lagi? Macam macam amni buat untuk saya. Allah je boleh balas budi baik Amni. Orangnya manis, rajin dan very greeeeeeeeen. Bersih oh. Dah lama tak jumpa amni. Rindu :')

4. Syuhada atau Syudud

Bestfriend saya dari Beseri sampai sekarang. Syudud ni lawak orangnyaaa. HAHA. Suka buat lawak spastik sikit. Kadang kadang datang bilik pukul 9.00 pagi nak makan maggi sebab lapar. HAHA. Mungkin memang tak boleh pisah dari Miss Dud nie. Tapi, lepas ni syud nak pergi UK. Tinggal saya. Dekat siapalaaaa saya nak sembang dengan cerita masalah. harap syud tak lupalaaaa kawan dia yang sorang ni.

5. Classmate

Naimah, abil, yanti, izzati, ain, najwa, fatin, eli, yee har, michelle, dan fasihah. mereka semua dalam golongan yang samalaaa. Kalau nak tulis satu satu panjang sangat. HEHE. Bersyukur kerana bertemu dengan mereka. :)

6. Ainzu or zuzu

Tak akan lupa Ainzuuuuu. Kawan saya sorang ni memang laaaa sangat semangat. Selalu laaaaa datang dan buat saya gelakkk. Sayanggg Ainzu. tatau nak cakap apa pasal Ainzu sebab byk sangat yang nak kena tuttt. HEHE. malangnyaaa tak ada gambar dengan ainzu :( Tapi tak apa, ada gambar dalam hati :)

Apa yang ingin di highlightkan di sini adalah sahabat tak datang selalu dalam hidup kita. jarang kita dapat sahabat yang sanggup kongsi susah senang. jadi, sementara ada, hargailah. Saya sayang sahabat saya, awak?

* ibu dan ayah

2011-06-21T11:51:00.003+08:00

salam.

Post ini agak sentimental tapi siapa peduli kan?

Ibu dan ayah, dua orang ini adalah orang yang paaaaaaaaaaling saya sayaaaaaaaaang dalam dunia selepas Allah dan Rasul. Merekalah yang bagi semangat, cinta, kasih sayaaaang dan duit. HEHE.

Dah 20 tahun saya hidup, sekarang baru saya betul betul rasa dan tahu bahawa mereka adalah nyawa saya. Bukan sebelum ini tak rasa tapi, kurang rasanyaa. Bak kata orang, kita kadang kadang tak hargai apa yang ada depan mata. Seperti juga saya. Bila dah besar dan mula boleh berfikir, saya tahu saya tidak akan dapat hidup dan berjaya seperti sekarang (berjaya ke?). Setahu saya, nasihat mereka jugalaa penenang hati saya walaupun kawan kawan ada disekeliling saya. Mereka macam depressant - sangat menenangkan.

Ibu;

nama ibu Nurulhana bt. Shamsuddin. seorang wanita yang cukup saya kagumi dalam hidup saya. walaupun ibu selalu emosi, tapi saya tetap sayang ibu. Ibu selalu risau kalau saya sedih. Masih ingat lagi, sewaktu saya tak dapat placement di Ireland, ibulah orang yang paling sedih sekali. Walaupun ibu tak tunjuk, tapi, saya tahu ibu sedih. Berkali kali ibu cakap "sabar kakak, Allah nak uji kamu tuu." waktu exam IB, ibulah orang yang tak putus putus doa untuk saya. Semoga anaknya ni dapat jawab periksa dengan elok. setiap malam ibu bangun dan buat solat Hajat. Comelkan ibu? setiap kali periksa mesti dan harus call ibu sebab ibu nak tahu saya boleh jawab exam atau tidak. kalau tak, ibu yang akan call. pada suatu hari, sebelum ke intervies Newcastle Australia, ibu risau sangat untuk saya. Takut anaknya tidak dapat tempat lagi. Sebelum saya pergi, ibu peluk dan kata "Buat elok elok, ibu akan doakan kakak dekat sini". jadi dengan doa ibu, saya pergi interview tu. InsyaAllah, ada rezaki saya, saya akan dapat.

Itulah ibu, seorang yang sabar, tabah, penyayang dan superwomannn. Saya sayaaaaaang ibu <3

Ayah;

nama ayah Zulkiflee bin Rasdi. Seorang lagi insan yang saya cukup kagumi. kadang-kadang ayah nampak macam tak peduli, tapi sebenarnya ayah sangat peduli. Percayalah. Ayah tempat saya mengadu dan tempat untuk saya naikkan balik semangat saya. kata-kata ayah selalu dapat hilangkan sedih dan air mata saya yang dah bertakung ni. Tapi kadang-kadang, no selalunya pecahlah empangan air mata sebab sedih sangat. Ayah tak pernah mengelak kalau saya nak bercerita. Dulu, waktu saya sedih, again kerana IB juga, ayah call berkali kali dan tanya tentang saya. Ok ke tidak. Ayah juga selalu cakap "Sabar kakak, semua ni ada hikmahnya. kalau tak dapat maknanya memang Allah tak nak bagi sebab ada sesuatu yang lagi baik untuk kakak." dan satu lagi yang paling saya ingat. "kakak semoga berjaya. kakak boleh buat. Ayah tahu anak ayah hebat dan ayah selalu bangga dengan kakak". itulah ayat yang masih tersemat dalam hati dan menjadikan saya seperti saya sekarang. Ayah juga sanggup ambil cuti semata-mata nak hantar saya ke Kuala Lumpur untuk interview. bayangkan, Taiping ke Kuala Lumpur. Itulahhh namanya ayah. Apa saja sanggup dilakukan untuk anaknyaaaa.

Itulah ayah, pemberi motivasi dan orang yang menjadikan saya kuat semangat. Saya sayaaaaaang ayah <3

Inilah dua orang yang saya maksudkan, Ibu dan ayah ;)

* Don't ask me, I don't know

2011-05-12T10:21:00.000+08:00

Seriously, in my life I don’t know what I have done wrong. Am I truly a bad person? Is this karma or something? I don’t know. But somehow deep down I know, this is all Allah’s work. He planned everything perfectly for me. Probably, that thing is so not for me, so that’s why I did not get it. Dear Allah, I know I’m not a good servant for you. I come to you when I desperate of having no one but Allah, I have no means. I am trying to be a good one. I promise O’ Allah. Whenever I did not get what I want, I know, Allah had saves something for me. A good one and I just need to be patient. Yes – PATIENCE. That’s the word.

People ask me, annoying question. I can’t answer it. Don’t ask. Seriously, I don’t know. Please. I am SAD. Yes, I AM. But, am I supposed to cry? No, right? I’m big already and big girls don’t cry.

I pretend to be tough, pretend to laugh, pretend to be happy, and pretend to be what I am right now. Deep down, no one knows. Who knows what inside my heart, only HIM-Allah. People said, be strong, don’t give up, blablabla. Yes, I know and thank you everybody for saying that but I’ve had enough for myself. The least thing that I hope people around me to do is to keep quiet and don’t ask anything. Just keep their mouth shout, act as if nothing happen. Believe me, it feels much better.

It’s about to end, and I’m glad it’ll over soon. But, I have to fight for something, fight to get the answer that people kept asking me. I hope it will be a real good answer.

* if I know

2011-05-06T18:32:00.002+08:00

Salam,

I'll start off my blog with Salam of course. Okay, sorry redundant. Its been two years in KMB and now I am sitting for my final IB exam. One paper is done, Maths. i hope i done well.

Life teaches me a lot. A lesson from A to Z. i did not get any placement yet. Yess, what to say. There must be lots of people talking like why she did not get her placement? She's not cleverlaaa, that's why, yada yadaaa and all. I've been rejected three time already. First by IUMC, second PMC and the third one is from Chezch. I personally think there is a reason behind everything. I tried everything and tawakal to Allah everytime I faced the interview session but what I know is, if that place is a good place for me, then, send me there. If it is not,DON'T. Yaaa, ia sakit bila anda ditolak berkali-kali macam kalau nak beli ice cream tu mak kata no! cannot!, atau senang kata bila anda nak sesuatu dan telah berusaha semampunya, tetapi tetap tak dapat. itu yang saya rasa.

But, what I can say is Allah had planned everything for me. Everything have a reasons behind it. Deep down, I know Allah reserves something for me. A better place fro me, InsyaAllah. Allah cuma tak nak bagi sekarang. i need to pray more and work harder.

I am so lucky to have wonderful friends around me, especially my roommate, Arlina Arshad. She is everything. She saved me whenever I feel like I'm sinking in the ocean where no one to be found. She is my sister, my best friend, and my IB 45 mate :) Thank you Arli. Ibu kata, kawan bila berduka susah na cari and i think I found one. Thank you Allah.

What i can say is, the placement thing is not really a matter to me because I have other things to do. If Allah say so, then it will be. It's just a matter of time. We just have to wait. Ya, janji Allah itu pasti. Well, get back to work and focus on my IB exam. I have to get 45 for Allah, for my teachers, and for ayah and ibu. Opah juga yang selalu buat solat hajat semoga cucu dia tak selalu sedih. :)

I don't know what my life will be next and I just can pray to Allah that He gives me the strength to face the world - real world. keep on praying and remember Him. he knows what best for us and InsyaAllah, we'll get it sooner or later :)

* Universe :)

2010-12-12T23:04:00.001+08:00

She is BEAUTIFUL;

drop dead gojes weyh !

* hujan rintik rintik, air bergelora

2010-12-11T08:12:00.002+08:00

Salam.

Here i am pada jam 8.14 pagi. Di ruang tamu rumah sambil cuba untuk siapkan TOK but end up menulis blog. Urrgghh. selalu macam tu. Now, in Taiping hujan rintik rintik sebab tu tajuk post macam tu. HEHE. Ibu punya nasi lemak dah bau bau sampai depan rumah. OH my, sedap menusuk kalbu tak ingat.

Semalam kononnya nak pegi tengok movie Narnia 3D but then tak jadi oleh kerana kaknyah nak kena practice Seni dia because dia ada paper last SPM which is Pendidikan Seni Visual. So, dia asyiklaa melukis lukisan laga dia tu until dah bertimbun timbun ikan laga dalam rumah ni. Btw, i never thought ikan laga would be this beautiful. Ingatkan ikan laga warna hitam. HEHEHE. Gila kuno aku nie. Adoi ! Memalukan orang kampung je kann.

Today kena siapkan my TOK essay. Sakit kepala bila fikir bende tu. Like OMG. But then, takpela because it helps me a lot. Membantu saya menjadi a great thinker. When i learned TOK, i learn what life is sebenanrnya. Berfikir pun cara matang jugak. cheewahh. Okay, plan untuk today. Ibu kata nak balik kampung but then, my essay tak siap lagi tp, oleh kerana dah rindu opah, baliklaaa kampung. Jenguk jenguk. Peluk cium sekejap. Bukan selalu balik kampung kann. Besides, ada kenduri lagi dekat kampung.

This morning, pagi pagi lagi dah tengok video lawak. OMG, like memanglaa this particular person nie gila berani buat appearance dekat You Tube kan. Kalau korang pernah tengok, nama dia Cikgu Shida. Mannnn, she is soooo funny ! HAHAHA. Seriously you guys should watch it. Adoyaiii. And, darn itt, she got a fan page mann! OMG, gila ramai kott fan diaa ! HAHAHA.

Ini mungkin video kemunculan baru dia di You Tube

Lawak kannn ? HAHA. Waktu ni dia tak ada kostum lagi. And, here's more :)

HAHA, full with costum lagi. Jadi ahli sihir. Serious lawak. :) She really have guts to do that eh ?

Ok, now, nak pergi makan nasi lemak. perut dah berkeroncong. Till then.

*le déjeuner :)

2010-12-10T15:22:00.004+08:00

Salam.

Haha, tajuk post tak boleh blah nak guna French jugak. HEHE. Okay, today hari yang agak gloomy sebab kelam kabut nak siapkan my TOK essay. TOK stands for Theory of Knowledge. Ala-ala macam falsafahlaaa begitu kan. Jadi, I was duduk in front of laptop and suddenly feels hungry. Sekarang dah pukul 2 petang but then tak lunch lagi. (Ceh, padahal makan breakfast pun dah pukul berapa tadi kan) Walaubagaimanapun, duduk konon nak menunggu bonda pulang mana tau kot ada makanan. So, call la ibu.

Saya : Hello ibu, ibu balik tak tengah hari ni?

Ibu : Ibu tak baliklaa sebab kereta ada dekat ayah.

Saya :(Dengan hampanya) Oh, takpelaa ibu, nanti kitorang masaklaa apa apa kat dalam peti ais tu

Ibu :Ok, kat peti ais ada daging, telur, ayam, udang dengan sotong

Saya : Haaa, ok ok ibu. Nanti taula kitorang. Ok, bye ibu

Jadi conversation samapai di situ. Turun ke dapur terus bukak peti ais dan keluar kan segala jenis makhluk yang ada dalam peti asi tu. Lepas tu naik atas balik, fikir nak masak apa. Oleh kerana semua orang dah lapar macam nak pengsan pengsan, jadi terpaksa buat keputusan dengan cepat dan pantas. Jadi, sebulat suara dah bersetuju untuk masak paprik campur dan juga sotong goreng tepung. Yummy ! Sedap oh ! (Saja nak puji diri sendiri)

Jadi turun semula ke dapur dengan 3 orang tentera yang lain. Berhempas pulaslaa potong bawang, potong tu, potong ni. Gamba tak ada sebab semua sibuk sampai dah tak peduli nak snap snap. Jadi, setelah setengah jam di dapur. Inilah yang jadi

TADAAAAA !!!!

Sotong goreng tepung :)

Paprik campur. Ada ayam dan udang :)

Haha, ceh, sebenarnya masakan biasa jela. Tak adalah yang menarik pun. Tapi, saja suka-suka. Semua orang pun suka makan dan habis. Yeay. Mungkin esok boleh masak lagi. Cari another menu laa kan. Jadi, that's all for today. Kene menyaOK essay yang tak habis habis lagi ni padahal dateline Isnin depan. OMG, sekarang baru mula nervous.

* air mata yang berliter liter

2010-12-09T12:20:00.003+08:00

Baru semalam, air mata yang mahal ni meleleh leleh di pipi. Alasan dia sebab tengok cerita One Litre of Tears. Hah, pernah tengok ? OMG, mungkin perlu tengok sebab super sedih. Okay, mungkin jugak lame sekarang sebaba rasanya cerita nie dah berkurun. Kalau letak DVD dalam stor pun dah boleh bersawang siap ada labah labah lagi punya sawang. HEHE.

Cerita ni sangat menyayat hati. Mungkin agak looser kalau nak buat review cerita ni tapi suka hatilaaa. Untuk pengetahuan umum, manusia yang sedang menulis ni tak pernahla menangis dek kerana semata mata tengok cerita. Alih alih, cerita nie jugaklaaa yang menyayat hati. Agak tersentuh dengan cerita ni sebab perempuan ni tiba tiba dapat penyakit ganjil entah dari mana. but, then mak ayah sorokkan kisah penyakit nie tapi, dia dapat tau sendirilaaaaa in the end. paling menyayat hati, boyfriend dia sendiri tinggalkan dia. Part tu memang gila sedih. Aaaannd, paling best, ada jugak seorang lelaki yang suka die the fact yang dia duduk atas kerusi roda. Ohh, cute kan? Dinasihatkan, pada siapa siapa yang rasa nak gain spirit, tengoklaa this drama. I suggest! Sini ada preview sikit.

* OMG, rupanya saya dapat award

2010-12-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA, punyalah kuno dan berkurun rasanya. Ada jugak orang yang sudi bagi award. Terima kasih daun keladi. Lain kali bagi lagi yee ;) Thanks Anis, kawan saya dari Beseri.

* musim baru dan blog yang baru :)

2010-12-07T23:48:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum.

Entry kali ini agak peliklaaa. maklumlah, dah berkurun lamanya tidak menulis blog dan tiba tiba hari ni. WOAH ! Baru :) Rasa . seronok tengok orang lain menulis. Jadi, sendiri pun teringinlah. Walaupun akhirnya akan cakap perkara yang merapu dan tidak berfaedah selalunya. Dan juga, walaupun memang tak ada orang yang akan membaca blog ini tetapi tidak mengapa, akan kuteruskan. HAHA. Blog sendiri jadi suka hati

Actually, saya officially sedang bercuti tiga minggu sempena SEM break dan baru lepas buat exam last week. Jadi, ada lagu satu sem untuk final lepas tu IB is OVER! Lepas ni boleh meloncat loncat seperti kera masuk hutan. HAHA. Exam bolehlaaa, separa okay dan separa pengsan jugak. Boleh tarik nafas dalam dalam. Hmmm. *sigh* Jadi apa apa keputusan luar dugaan harap dimaafi.

Bila dah balik rumah, mulalah merindui kejadian kejadian pelik dan aneh di KMB. Bukan kejadian mistik atau alam nusantara tetapi kejadian dan rentetan peristiwa. Oh, rindu. Walaupun kadang kadang peristiwa itu meruntun jiwa. (Okay, ini ayat tak boleh upgrade lagi ke apa entah). Rindu pada kawan-kawan. Seriously. Rindu roomate saya, Arlina Arshad :) Rindu pada Maryam aka Yam yang mungkin sekarang tengah sibuk main internet tgk cerita Korea. Rindu pada classmate jugak.

Tomorrow, kaknyah which is my sister akan habis exam Bio. Jadi, freedomlah dia untuk seketika sementara tunggu last paper seni. jadi, GOOD LUCK ! After that, kami akan pergi pawagam dan menonton wayang. Memang indah hidup kalau kerja asyik berjoli suka ria. Duit sumbangan pihak ibu bapa :) Sekarang tepat jam 1.15 a.m. Hah, time to sleep. Life could not be better than this. Bersedia menanti hari esok ! (:

Mentor mentee ;)

*from left : amni, me, yee har, Teacher Azmira, Elli, Fatin, Husni Dexter

Again, its them (:

Oh, classmate :) sayang mereka !

tired

2010-04-06T20:30:00.002+08:00

salam,

today, im in mood to talk about IB. Bleerrgghhh. Bosannyeee. IB, apasal la kau susah sgt eh??? Tetibe rase mcm nk SPM balik..bole x??? baikla pegi buat SPM dari duduk seksa buat IB. Sebelum nie, i don't feel anything yet which, mcm,,oh, belajar je laaa. Byk ckp plak kan knnn..now, amik kau!

Here's are the list of things that i should do in IB and to be submitted :

IA Economics ( Internal Assessment )
EE ( Extended Essay ) - Psychology
World Literature
TOK essay ( Theory of Knowledge )
CAS untuk dihabiskan :)

Oh, man. Letih tau x duduk sini. Stress sume ade. I LOVE my life. Imagining yourself as 19 years old student who stuck in the life where an adult should be. Bole x??? What a world.

Haaaaaaa, however, i think its better to be susah now than susah later. kn kn kn???

ok, have to go now. IA economics to go :)

when peccadillo make things worst.

2010-03-14T12:08:00.003+08:00

salam.

according to my last and previous post mengenai seorang sahabat yang i thought you know. hmmm

we had a talk and i thought it was ok. everyhting was clear enough for me and my sahabat too.

we bersalam salam and i thought we had no hard feelings after this.

ape yg shock adalah, we are so distancing with each other. I thought it was ok already. I wonder what is it with those forgive and forget thing when you still can't accept it. i know its hard to accept what did i just said to you but i think you do understand it and realize it was your mistake and of course i've done my mistake too. a big one. Sorry for that

sepatutnya kita baik and i thought that you are so angry with me and perhaps because you can't accept what i've just said to you. but, its a good thing to know who you are actually and now i noe and i can learn from it. i learn from my mistakes and others and i don't get the thing that you're trying to do now. i'm confuse.

to you, i'm still your friend anyways :)

100 things about ainunMENAWAN :)

2010-03-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: cactus mineral water, bole x?

2. Last phone call: ayah :)

3. Last text message: areef :)

4. Last song you listened to: Mardy Bum ; Arctic monkeys

5. Last time you cried: last two days

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: so far, nope!

7. Been cheated on: no, hopefully tidak untuk selamanya

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: duuhh!

9. Lost someone special: yes.

10. Been depressed: sometime :(

11. Been drunk and threw up: puh-lease! jgn sentuh minuman tu..haram!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue
13. white
14. pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: yes yes yes!

16. Fallen out of love: surprise surprise

17. Laughed until you cried: always! :DD

18. Met someone who changed you: absolutely ;)

19. Found out who your true friends were: yes and yes!

20. Found out someone was talking about you: mesti ade punye

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: haha. mungkin ;)

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: almost everyone

23. How many kids do you want?: ok...this time i pick 2 ( cukupla )

24. Do you have any pets: no..no..no...saya takut kucing & sewaktu dgnnya..tkt kene gigit! gigigigi!

25. Do you want to change your name: nooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

26. What did you do for your last birthday: crying because that day is chemistry exam final SEM I :(

27. What time did you wake up today: 6.10 to be precised

28. What were you doing at midnight: lab reports. ape lagi?

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: hmmm...i don't know

30. Last time you saw your Mother: last two weeks. saya RINDU IBU :((

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i think i've had enough. syukur.

32. What are you listening to right now : Ella ; standing in the eyes of the world

33. Have you ever talked to a person name TOM? : sape die????

34. What's getting on your nerves right now?: finishing my lab report! uurrggghhhhh!

35. Most visited webpage: FACEBOOKla..of course!

36. Whats your real name: ainun munirah binti zulkiflee

37. Nicknames: ainun, nun, nunun, munirah, enun, ape lagi eh???

38. Relationship Status: unidentified

39. Zodiac sign: sagitarrius

40. Male or female?: female

41. Primary school: sk klian pauh

42. Secondary school: smk convent, taiping

43. High school/college/university?: mrsm BESERI and 23 jun ; MARA College Banting

44. Hair color: black la..xkn blonde kot...

45. Long or short: do i need to answer that???

46. Height: 155cm...lebey kurangla...

47. Do you have a crush on someone? : oh yesssss!!!

48: What do you like about yourself?: everything! ;)

49. Piercings: none.

51. Righty or lefty: lefty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: waktu baby.

53. First piercing: when i was 5. subang!

54. First best friend: zurina...where are you huh?

55. First sport you joined: tennis!

56. First vacation: sidney, australia!

58. First pair of trainers: nike from paklang :)

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating: naah.

60. Drinking: yes..mineral water [sore throat]

61. I'm about to: continue on my lab report

62. Listening to: Gemilang ; Jaclyn Victor

63. Waiting on: finishing my reports!

YOUR FUTURE

64. What kids?: 1 boy, 1 girl

65. Get Married?: in 8 years time...lame lagi...

66. Career?: gynaecologist! insyaAllah

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: both.

68. Hugs or kisses: saya suka keduanya!

69. Shorter or taller: taller

70. Older or Younger: not so old.hehe

71. Romantic or spontaneous: both! both!

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: aha! stomachla...naa..bothla!

73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship of course!

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: nor.

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: nope

77. Drank hard liquor: never ever!!!

78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes..always!

79. Sex on first date: omg!!! big NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

80. Broken someone's heart: nope!

82. Been arrested: haha..never!

83. Turned someone down: entahla...xpenahla kot..

84. Cried when someone died: yea, always! even if it's a stranger :(

85. Fallen for a friend?: aha!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

86. Yourself: mestila...

87. Miracles: yea..mcm lagu mariah carey...

88. Love at first sight: that's crapt! trust me...hehe

89. Heaven: yeah!!!

90. Santa Claus: nope! except when i was 5, i really wanna ride the deer...hehe

91. Kiss on the first date: never.

92. Angels: yup! :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never.

95. Did you sing today?: yup!!! everywhere...

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: back to when i first see my ayah and ibu ;)

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: the day when my life suck at the college and my friends come and entertain me! :DDD feel better!

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: no...i believe i will one day!

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yes yes yes!!!

perempuan oh,

2010-02-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

salam.

mungkin taju post tiada kaitan dalam entry ini dan mungkin juga ada sedikit iaitu about perempuan. oh, geram! mungkin cara pengolahan tidak begitu memberangsankan. i'm totally pissed off! saya geram dgn manusia atau hamba Allah yg begitu kononnya baik dan saya doa semoga hatinya betul betul baik kerana perempuan itu, oh! mulutnya lancang mcm seperti apabila dgr rasa nk bagi penendang.

maybe i was too emotional. tetapi, perlukah dia? ayat yg dia kata pada saya.

" eh, macam mana kau boleh jawab soalan ni? mcm mane dpt jawapan?"

dan, saya hanya membisu sbb malas nk layan dgn soalan itu, tp, sbb kesian sbb buat muka bajet comel, maka dijawab oleh saya,

" aku try and error je, tgk-tgk betolla pulak jawapannya. lagipun, buat dgn orang. ade org tolong ajarkan."

maka, saya pun senyum bahagia walaupun dalam hati rasa nk *****

dengan biadabnya, dan muka selamba katak dia, die kata,

" oohhh, boleh eh?? ke...kau tiru jawapan belakang??? "

lalu dia ketawa sinis yg mane bila aku dgr, darah dlm bdn nie rase mcm kering lps tu mcm nk terbakar jiwa yg duka lara ini. huh! OMG!!! unbelievable! kurang ajar la kau.

fasa ini, fasa struktur ayat menjadi agak kasar. tp, ini hanyalah monolog dalaman tp, luarannya habis kertas aku konyok sbb nk tahan marah.

first thing first, aku taula aku tak sepandai kau dan aku tidakla seterror kau dalam math sbb kau la yg paling hebat! jadi, perlukah anda memberi statement batak tu???

urrggghhh! aku tau kau hebat, tp, kau tak bolehla ckp mcm tu. konon baikla sgtkn? tp, perangai mcm apa entah. mungkin kau x sedar, selama nie kau selalu vkp kat aku x baik ckp tu la, inila..tp, diri sendiri???? x igt. mulut tu aku boleh tampar bg sikit mcm angelina jolie. mahu??

tambahan kepada kebatakan kau, kalau kau kate aku tiru jawapan maths, tp, at least, i didn't cheat on my test. BIOLOGY test! shit! aku nmpak kau tiru, siap bawak notes lagi! baik punya eh? are you too desperate to be the first supaya kau nmpak hebat or, sbb nk dpt markah tinggi. i didn't tell cikgu oleh kerana i thought you may learn from your lesson or else, i'm too freakin stupid to hide it because awak sahabat saya. tp, i just can't respect you anymore. i'm so dissapointed dan aku rase mmg rase mcm nk lmpng je. tp, xpe. i've always give u a chance. sbb, awak kawan saya.

hah! mungkin patut stop sekarang. in a controll emosion. full stop

hip hip hureeyy!

2010-01-04T14:33:00.003+08:00

salam,

again, i'm here. perhaps the last post [ tipu je lebey ]. i'm goin back to kmb tomorrow without preparing anything especially mentally. i run across the trail through the beech and white pine but i am asking myself which way.oh, some mental eruption. heh! ngeng. oh, nk balik kolej semula. rasa berat nk tinggalkan rumah. haih. sedih pon adela. banyak pulak. entry post mmg tiada kena mengena dgn perasaan waktu ni..heee :)

cuti nie, nothing special happen. mungkin sebab tak berapa nk enjoy. off to penang to see my ayah perform for USM jazz band. then, family gathering to penang. and not to forget, ke cameron highland also for working-vacation. oh, my- entah kenapa setakat vacation, mesti have work and i don't really enjoy it. duhh! tp, bersyukur tetap ade because i still have my family then rather than being ignore by my own family. they still take me and my sister for a holiday, at least to be away from home.

one thing for sure, i didn't do my home assignment which is to read the novel which i think bloody boring. uuhhhh! two novel instead. somehow, regretting is too late and i just have to read it in college i think. no disturbance. make sure to finish it within a day. duuhhhh! like it gonna happen. tp, bolehla. usaha! :)

balik.balik kolej! sekarang! make sure you have strong semangat! jangan nk lemah lemah sangat. nk pegi UK buat cara nk pegi UK! determination please.

p/s : tolongla semangat! haha :)

* i may rite one more post. kalau rajin. ;)

; this is how Malaysian works

2009-12-16T20:42:00.003+08:00

salam.

i'm so overly tired. Today supposed to be our hospital attachment and we end up waiting like a bunch of fool. uuurrggghhh! somehow, i'm sooooo pissed off! mmgla. i've waited it for like 4 hours and nothing happen. Waiting for ketua jabatan is like waiting for a rain in a drought. ceh! bole x macam tu. Honestly saying, at least have some sense of respect or humanity to us people!!! i noe we're just student yg belom pon lagi in a medical school but, we've worked so hard for this. Penat ke sana ke mari and end up nothing. Ceh! what a disappointment! Bole x, bak kate syed, macam orang nk jual insurans kt hospital. haha!

After that, oleh kerana terlampau lama menunggu dan tahap kesabaran sudah tamat, kitorang membuat keputusan untuk meronggeng di Taiping Sentral [ so called TS ] sbb, that is just the place yang ade pon. Then, we ate McDonald dan kami membuat keputusan untuk tgk wayang. Cerita ape, tau x, cerita santau.haha! kelakar jgkla tgk cerita tu tp, it was total fun. Takut tu mmgla, haih. gila plak nk takut takut padahal it was just a movie.

Finally, aku pon tumpangkan mereka mereka pulang. Siap masuk rumah minum air kelapa.haha! sedap oh! dan jmpe adik nadia yang amat comel! haha! tolongla faham die comel! heee :))

enough for now,

till then, ainun

; so called "hot chicks"

2009-12-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

dear hope,

today, i went to this kenduri. I was a little bit shock to see these particular family with so much of pretending of rich-to-be. ignore the brokenness of my language [ thank you ]

so, the main point here is actually not that kendurila. it's just this two girl so called to be hot chick padahal aku yang tgk nie rase mcm nk lempang muka sorang-sorang.

At first, i was just looked with this emotionless feelings to them tapi this one particular incident make me sick and so damn annoyed with it. Uuuuuggghh! I'm totally pissed off! tak bole blah punye dua org budak. Rase macam nk sepak-sepak. This is how it begin, there was this one family ener pintu tu and this one girl who i think cukup sopanla pakai diorang daripada those kids. Suddenly, i saw damn giggle mcm org gle bile budak tu passed by diorang. like, what the heck! i am cock sure! ceewaaahh! mmg confident, they are laughing their ass off at budak tu. Kesian kt budak tu. OMG! tak boleh blah. ape pon, i like that girl better than the "hotchick-to-be".

Haih, to those girl, this is one thing for you guys to ponder upon. It doesn't matter if you are pretty. The matter here is your heart and how your brain works. Looking people like they are bloody disgust to you is just somehow a pathetic thing that would ever happen to human beings. Just feel sorry to yourself. Thank you.

Haih, aku tataula ape yang idmerapukan hari ini. Yang pasti, adalah luahan hati seorang manusia yg simpati kepada manusia yang lain kerana ade org-org yg tidak tahu mengapa berfikir sangat tidak betul dan tidak matang.

alright then, enough for now. i'm signing off.

p/s : sekarang nk tgk ibu nasyid! good luck ibu :)

hari yang indah :)

2009-12-11T08:52:00.002+08:00

salam.

Hari ini hari yang indah :) ceh, macam ayat kanak-kanak tahun 1. I'm starting my day at enstek [ rumah pakngah ]. Thank you kepada makngah kerana telah menjemputku di sekolah. thanks makngah! Bangun pagi-pagi dan terasa bibir seperti Angelina Jolie kerana semalam, nyamuk jantan yang tak boleh resist tengok mulut aku yang hot ni kot. Aduhai! Bangun pagi je sudah nampak cahaya dan kate, yeay! hari ni tak payah pegang buku lagi walaupun pada hakikatnya kene la belajar lagi. baru habis sem 1.

As exam ends, lega nk mampos di mana rasa nak terguling pon ade selepas kecewa dengan kertas maths yang agaknya boleh jadi bahan jugak kalau sesiapa yang terasa nk menamatkan hayatnya [ dalam bidang maths ].I've done my best and it's up to Allah untuk menentukan gred aku dan IB point. I've got one and a half year yet to persue my study and up, up fly away to UK and hopefully to University of Nottingham. amin :)

Today, ayah and ibu balik dari Bandung. Can't wait for jeans and handbag. Bandung mari! :)

p/s : nak tengok marathon spongebob :)

dahla hitam, gelap pulak

2009-11-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

hari ini diumumkan sebagai hari sedih dimana laptop dah rosak and i find it very irritating and annoying. menyampahnya apabila rasa nk hempas dan di saat bila nk gna, die buat hal. dahla aku beli kau, pastu kau buat gedik dgn aku nk rosak - rosak pulak.boleh2 kene flying kick karang.
alternative penyelesaian adalah dgn menghantar ke kedai dan repair, tapi buang mase je sbb aku dh merajuk dgn laptop tu. so, jalan terbaik adalah dgn membeli yg baru. :D * muka gembira*

selesai yg tu, IOP malay x siap lagi padahal hari isnin dah nk kene present. jantung rase mcm nk meletup. Tak sedar diri IOP tu esok, hari nie, boleh lagi berlenggang kangkung melepak kt rumah maksu yg serba indah ini online. Bajet macam nk cari artikel, wanita hari inila, oprah la..last skali, haprak! mmg kecewa dgn diri sendiri, tp, xpe...lain kali insyaAllah x akan buat lagi.

Exam final lagi tiga minggu dan buku x habis dibaca lagi..pure maths macam tergantung di tgh jalan. Sume pon x cover lagi, apal yg nk jadi nie. mcm biasa x sedar diri jgk. Igt nie mcm SPM ke ape eh? Kalau dah automatik pandai x pe jgk, nie nk bace, igt pon terkedek. Tgh merenung nasib, lepas nie nk sambung berusaha walaupon tak tahu byk mane la usaha tu. Bru td ayah n ibu dtg, bg semangat. jgn nk mengada jadi cik pemalas.

Konklusinye, akhir kate, makin nk exam, makin byk la dugaannya. Hypotesis diterima. Mungkin boleh berhenti merepek sekarang. off ; ainun

calm.

2009-10-27T01:08:00.003+08:00

losing isn't that bad actually.

somehow, she tried and learn from her mistakes

and, mostly, she's experiencing to be an expertise :D

P/S : SHE is strong and learning :)

love ;

*ainunMENAWAN ;)

; think

2009-10-17T08:40:00.003+08:00

salam.

think of how much HE loves you but do you?

think again of how much HE cares for you but do you even care?

think deeply of how HE could give your life better, do you ever realize about it?

think ; self reflection

; they just can't take it away from me.

2009-10-14T20:03:00.001+08:00

They can say,

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,

And they can try

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all,

But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me,

That shines brightly,

They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

From me

Oh they,

They can do

Anything they want to you,

If you let them in,

But they won't ever win,

If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,

See I..

I have learned,

There's an inner peace I own,

Something in my soul that they can not possess

So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me

That shines brightly, They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

They can't take this

Precious love I'll always have inside me,

Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I won't face the ground,

I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,

Oh, Lord, they do try,

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all

But I refuse to falter

In what I believe or lose faith in my dreams,

'Cause there's a light in me,

That shines brightly

They can try but they can't take that away from

From me

love ;

*ainunMENAWAN ;)

; of the beat. clear your mind and let your heart speak

2009-09-29T07:49:00.001+08:00

When mouth shut, everything seems to be little perky. I’m at most doing my math HL and people can imagine how hard it was. Damn HARD! Is it ok to caps it? Haha! Denying the truth or fact is so uncivilized. I’m trying to be decent with environment and people. Talking about this math thingy somehow annoyed me. Not to be that judgmental or being self centered every time the algebra flash my wits but I am telling the truth. Sometimes, I felt sick of not knowing what exactly math is. However, I’m still learning though as all my heart and soul truss and constrain everything, every thought that I have to know all but eventually, knowing a quadrant of it is enough.

Last week, I went to KLIA by reason to send my uncle to Sunderland. I guess, it his fate and his hard work that brought him there. I’m glad and so contented. Everyone is feeling ecstatic that day although they felt sad because somebody in our family is leaving. At KLIA, everyone was all around it and I can see all those type of people. Everything went fine for a moment until, it’s time for them to leave. The atmosphere was poignant as everyone is hugging and crying. I felt sad though but I’m so happy to see all those people going to oversea, somehow it's a jealousy. They raised my spirit after all. On and on, I hop over to the world that I’ve never been too. Back to my previous story, learning math is way much better than having such a trouble like them on going to oversea. It hard though. Imagining yourself begging for bank loan and hoping for the visa’s to be on the dot. Well, I can’t. Seeing those people really makes my heart wide open and this is the time when my mind is clear and my heart speaks. All I have to do is just learn. By hook or by crook, I must and I will have to do it. And, dadada! I’m on. Simple! So, I’ve changed my paradigm and let just enjoying our moment learning the pureness of math and the language of algebra. I know its sound a little fraud but it actually the epitome of life and shared it to be cherished.

xoxo, ainunMENAWAN ;)

bercinta :)

2009-09-29T07:27:00.002+08:00

salam.

title blog ini saje ditulis tetapi tiada kaitannya langsung. I don't know why, but makin lama, makin la aku nie kering idea to write in this blog. oh my, terrible! however, i want to write today just to tell you that we won! congrats everyone.haha! Ape yg korang mngla??? haaa, our choir team had won the first place for Sambutan Kemerdekaan and kami gembira. Thanks a lot to Syaza and Sam for teaching us to get to the right note. oh, you have no idea how hard it was. Pheww! But, alhamdulillah, we manage to get it right. Not to forget, my choir members, arlina, seha, syahira, juliana,chew fang, manul and also azam. I had lots of fun training with you guys and hopefully we will be together later and perform together.

Next topic, bercerita tntng my post title, bilalah saya ni nk bercinta????

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! tension!

but not la like bercinta thingy, i mean, bercinta with my books!~ ahahaha!

i want to bercinta again with my math, chem and blablabla...so much to give my love too...aiyo

*but maybe, i will like be more triple kali serious this time. Seriously in relationship with books. Hopefully b'cause final is just in two month time. Takutla mak! tp, mak kate, dh takot belajarla! apela yang ko buat lagi ngan komputer tu..haish!

sekian.

kembali :)

2009-09-26T16:48:00.002+08:00

haha...aku kembali setelah sekian lama menyepi. tapi, takdela lame sgt pon ;)

now, i'm at kmb. have too! aiyo, bernasib mlg jgkla while others are huraa huraa beraya di rumah. i have to sing for choir team..lalalalalala!!!!!! haha! well, for the sake of my college too.

raya was lots of fun! mcm biasa, i ate like a lot and a lot la...first raya, di kampung ibu. Seronok kerana mendapat duit raya yang byk dan lebih best bila di kg ayah kerana duitnya lagi banyak! Jadi, kerana tak tahu malu, aku menebalkan muka jgk beratur bersama anak-anak kecik yang lain, makanya, dptla sikit duit tu dalam dua tiga ringgit tu adela jgk.

Hari ini, aku di kmb. Bosan la jgk suasananya. Well, waiting for ppl to come. Tomorrow will be the competition. Hopefully, we will perform the best and tidak memalukan diri sendiri. that's all for now, i think. chiow! :D

hidup ;)

2009-09-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

salam.

i've been busy all the way through as i step into this world. Dunia yang penuh dengan kesibukan. Disitulah segalanya bermula. Hidup sebagai anak muda yang berjuang untuk hidupnya demi Allah;Tuhannya, ibu dan bapa serta agamanya.

Ok, enuff with the introduction. haha! As i counted, it's been three month i've been studying here at KMB. HAHA! now i noe what life is actually all about. I lerned a lot by it. Two weeks experience of fasting in my college with new friends, new culture and new environment is actually so nice. I love the way it flows although i've had a hard time during that damn two weeks.

Sebermula, selepas cuti. Homework yang bagaikan seperti gunung kinabalu di Sabah itu sudah saya siapkan, tapi xdela siap sangat pon. itu hanya exaggeration. Terus ke kelas dan melalui hari hari sukar yang penuh dengan mass spec, algebaraic dan paling penting, sahabat baik;GDC.

Tapi, rasa seronok bila masu kelas english because we are learning literature. Jadinys, terserlahlah kejiwangan manusia-manusia di kelas saya ini. Tapi, seriously saying, they are so going to be Elizabeth Browning or Mr. Shakespere as they wrote awesomely!~

Sonnet is rox ; How do i love thee.....

Setertusnya, hari yg penuh dugaan telah berjaya dilalui dgn tabahnya dan menjadi paling mencabar apabila diannaounced untuk adanya kuiz ataupun senang kata standardise test untuk math,biologi,econs, dan blablabla dan mmg seperti yang dijangka, soalannya seperti boleh dikatakan otak sebelah saya sudah kecut dek kerana memerah idea untuk menjawab econs, otak belah kiri makin kembung akubat menghafal biologi dan terngiang-ngiang structure plasma membrane yg mmg unik dan aneh ; maha suci Allah yg menciptakannya, next,otakku bagai disimbah asid bile jawab kimia dan kedua-dua otak ku yang telah menjadi kecut dan fragile dan mungkin x lama lagi pecah dek kerana pure maths ; subjek favourite saya. ooops kami semua!

Setelah satu demi satu test dijalankan. rasa seksa pulak habes cuti nk amek resullt test. tp, xpe, redha dan tawakal setelah berusaha.

Habis test, rasa tengang. Puasa pon rasa aman. amin. mmg Allah sygkan aku. Whatever it is, life in my college is ok and doing what i did right now, is not that hard if you really want to do it. It's just in the matter of time. I have faith in myself insyaAllah and lillahita'ala.

Ignore the craptness. ini sindrom si gadis IB selepas test :D

*saya sayang awak,awak,awak, dan awak semua!~

bila pintu hati diketuk ; Ramadhan

2009-08-27T10:09:00.004+08:00

Ramadhan datang lagi. Berjuta umat menunggu kedatangannya bagai menunggu satu kelahiran baru. Bagi kami, Ramadhan adalah titik perubahan, bulan ketenangan dan penuh istiqamah.
Ramadhan datang dan mengetuk pintu hatiku. Mengajak diri untuk muhasabah dan menilai sejauh mana hidup ini membawa aku menjadi diri sendiri. Aku berfikir sejenak dan melihat ciptaan Allah. Subhanallah, bahawa aku sebenanrnya telah lalai di muka bumi ini. Lalai menjadi seorang muslim solehah, aku sibuk dengan kelalaian dan keseronokan dunia.
Kadang kala, aku tidak berfikir bahawa Allah telah menentukan segalanya tetapi, aku seakan lupa bahawa aku sepatutnya bersyukur, bukan hanya tahu meminta.
Bila pintu hati diketuk, dada bagai terasa lapang. Bagai dicuci dgn keikhlasan diri sendiri yg datangya dari Allah s.w.t . Maha suci Allah, Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang yang masih memberi aku peringatan dan kesedaran disebalik kelalaian aku. Sesungguhnya, Allah masih menyayangi aku.

Benar kata orang, manusia lupa dan lalai tetapi di saat kesusahan, mereka kembali kepada pencipta mereka yang Maha Esa yang bisa melakukan apa sahaja dengan izinnya. Bila Ramadhan menjelma, aku menjengah zaman yang telah aku lalui. Penuh dgn kelalaian dan terlalu mengejar keduniaan. UPSR, PMR, SPM dan kini IB. Semua itu aku kejar untuk kenikmatan dunia tapi terdetik seketika di dalam hatiku bahawa, ia datang dari Maha Agung Allah.

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas, atau disaat kau mencabut nyawaku, aku akan tetap mencintaimu, ya Allah, rabbul alamin. Selama aku hidup, ya Allah, kau beri aku kenikmatan dunia dan aku cukup bersyukur dengan segalanya.

; refleksi diri dan muhasabah. Ramadhan titik permulaan dan perubahan.

love,
*ainunMENAWAN ;)

ramadhan.

2009-08-25T08:41:00.002+08:00

salam.

i'm back from my college. Feels good to be home. haha!~ i'm so lazy to update my blog and i don't noe why. so, sempena ramadhan, i just wanna say Selamat Berpuasa to all BLOGGERS and my READERS kalau adela. Hope you enjoy your ramadhan and menghayati bulan ini dgn penuh makna :D

to ponder upon.

2009-08-07T08:26:00.006+08:00

Salam.

i happened to like someone and i can't lie myself for not liking him. Someone gave this to me to ponder upon it.

Ya Allah,
Seandainya telah engkau catatkan
Dia milikku tercipta buatku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami agar kemesraan itu abadi
Dan ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi
Tetapi ya Allah
Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan dia bukan miliku
Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku
Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan
Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti
Berikanlah aku kekuatan
Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit
Hilang bersama senja nan merah agar aku bahagia
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya
Dan ya Allah yang tercinta
Gantillah yang telah hilang
Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah
Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya
Ya Allah ya tuhanku
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan
Adalah yang terbaik buat ku kerana Engkau maha mengetahui
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini

Ya Allah…
Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku
Di dunia dan di akhirat
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini
Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat
Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman
Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh

Amin
Ya Rabbal A’lamin.

Afterall, still hoping for him and may Allah hear all my prayers.

new born baby ; arissa qaisara

2009-08-04T13:15:00.002+08:00

salam.

yesterday was indeed a good day for me and too all my family ; opah, ibu, ayah, semuala...and especially to my dearest aunty and uncle - andak and uncle ajun. congrats!

although at first, it was a nerve racking moment. My aunty was attended to labour room and for 7 hours, at last the baby came out but with the help of vacumm. it was scary actually at first when the baby is nearly to come out but my aunty loses her breath and failed to push and, the baby went back inside...haha! kelakar plak rasenye....haish...at last, dgn doa dan kesabaran, the baby pon keluarla and see the world with the wight of 3.15kg and length of 53cm. She finally comes for real! but eventually, the mommy was sent to OT because the placenta

My andak had decided to put her name as what i've told her before back then when she still pregnant. oh, cooooll x??? Her name is Arissa Qaisara with the meaning of permaisuri dan azam yg kuat. Good name though. i really thought the name suits her because she was sooooo cute and i want her to be very determine and success in both dunia and akhirat.insyaAllah.

As the matter of facts, something suddenly bugged my head. thinking of how old i am compared to my cousin. OMG! by the time i'm 28, they're just 9 or 10!!! adoi, serious, x bole move on! hahaha :D xpela, by the time i become a doctor, bole treat them all ; my sepupu. haha!

Well, i'm glad to have her as my cousin. Her birth is one of the best thing that happen in my life and somehow, giving me a breakthrough to what i will be some day.

Arissa Qaisara ; you have such a beautiful name ( sbb saya yg bagi ) haha! i LOVE you.

new life ; new hope :)

2009-08-03T02:52:00.003+08:00

salam.

hello people. it's been a month since i don't write anything on my blog.

i don't have anything to write honestly but maybe i should write a bit about my new life.

I'm gonna start with my block first. i was placed in block D where all the girls are juniors. My room is D219 which is just far away from the main entrance whereby you have to take stairs and walk until the end of the world where there's a view of kelapa sawit and the jogging track and other stuff.
I'm lucky to have my roommate :D very sekepala! xbole move on! haha! miss arlina arshad or ali. gadis pink yang suke pakai selendang and sentiasa comel tu...that's my roommate la! haha :) i love the people there, baik, friendly and they were one of the best thing that happen in my life :D

From room to class. i was placed at M09D which i think full of marie curie's and albert einstein's. serious! mereka bijak! HEBAT! i'm sooooo thankful that Allah placed me in the class because so far i can mingle and mix around with everyone. thanks to seha, my deskmate yg asyik dgn pinknye walaupon i always tease her..haha! my buddy ; dodol! amni yang asyik dgn jaja nye dan teman ke mane2..haha!~

Ah, one more thing. i was in the choir group. haha! lwk x??? i noe my voice wasn't like mariah carey tp perasan sedap sudahhhhh! i was also one of the tennis member yg x berapa reti nk maen tenis and sometimes, i ashamed myself in front of everyone while playing it.haha :D

So, basically, that is my life at kmb. i think i have enough. Enough of little thingy that can make me survive at kmb. i'm gonna start a new life and raising new spirit. the hopeless is hoping for a new hope to be true.

i'm trying to be positive and think ahead ; the future :D

kmb

2009-06-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

salam.
alhamdulillah, i have a very safe journey to my college, MARA college Banting. it was very tiring day for me, i mean for the whole week of orientation. Friends here are great! i can't wait to start my lesson but a little bit afraid for the moment. haaa....so, before anything, terima kasih arlina!!! for letting me borrow her calcom broadband yang aru sahaj di beli! thnx room mate!~ hehehe

p/s : saya nervous, takut dan etc. very insecure right now.

til then,

love ; *ainunMENAWAN ;)

rhapsody hati ;)

2009-06-20T13:18:00.003+08:00

salam.

hye guys, this maybe my last post for now as i'm going to Kolej MARA Banting to futher my study in IB diploma. By the time i get there, no more free life and suka suki seperti dahulu.
i'm gonna be away from my house and probably less time to have fun.
i just hope to excell there and be good. haha! luckily, i have my friends with me ther. Loads of them and they can give me full support.

last night, as i packed my things, suddenly my adek come and somehow, it touched me :(

adek : kakak nk pergi mane ni??? nk pegi kolej MARA Banting ( she seriously said the full college name ) dah ke?

me : yes adek...selasa nie kakak masukla..

adek : kakak jgnla pergi...nnti sape nk tmn adek? nk hantar adek pegi sekolah? nk amek adek?

me : laa...ibu kn ade..mak cik dewi ade ( who is my jiran ) kn??? ok!

adek : tanak mak cik dewi...

me : ala..you have to la adek...xpon ibu amek kn?

adek : haaaa...( smiling ) kakak..

me : yes, ape???

adek : kakak nnti nyanyila kt adek...bole??? nnti adek rindu dgr kakak nyanyi melalak dlm bilik air tu..hehehe :DD

me : hmm...bole!!!! sure la syg oii! ( i merely to cry but i pretend strong! )

adek : ok!!! dhla kakak, adek tanak tolong kakak kemas la...adek nk tgk tv

me : dhla..pegi jauh2!

although she doesn't wanna help me which i find it soooo annoying but, i was a little upset but what to do? i have to go and fight for my future.

friends, thank you for supporting me and wish me luck there! haha! :D

till then ; bye.

love,
*ainunMENAWAN ;)

Give me a BREAK!

2009-06-16T08:44:00.004+08:00

salam.

The title really had nothing to do with my scrabbling. In a blink of eye, there were only one week left for me before I became a college student. Wondering, how life would be there? Hectic? Quiet? Nerd? Wondering too, what type of people there? Geeks? Outgoing? Funny? Fast motion? Oh, I still can’t believe myself. Going out there, struggling and fighting for my future. I didn’t think that I’ll be in going to this path, I mean, in this kind of way. Sometimes I find it pretty funny. Of course it’s a dream come true. I thank Allah for everything that I have now. I’m satisfied, enough said.

She is pristine.

She grow up as a girl who is not that smart who have that ‘wow ‘ factor in herself. A real underdog.

She used to not really use her brain before. Sometimes, people underestimate her.

She tried so hard to improve herself without anyone realize.

She kept trying and trying until she satisfied.

She grows as a teenager by her own experience, a gutter kind of experienced.

She always tried to endure the entire obstacle but sometimes, she failed.

She laugh out loud when she sad.

She is me; Ainun Munirah Zulkiflee.

And I’m going to be what I want to be. That’s a promise.

jari saya sakit.

2009-06-15T16:31:00.003+08:00

ini adalah akibat daripada bermain guitar.
seriously, it's so painful! especially when you need and have to press the chords. oh my! terrible.
but, nsib baik, i can play one song, Dewi by Dewa 19 but still tergagap-gagap.
Somehow, i'll try harder! caiyo! :D

chord ; E major, C minor and etc.

2009-06-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

finally, its a dream come true.

guitar from ayah. saya mahu reggae!

learning it with amania alwani who is a good friend of mine and also a great singer! SUPERB!
actually, it is not that hard playing it, bu you have to be so focused and have a long practice. oh yes! it's true.

AYAH said ; kalau nk pandai main guitar, kene practice smpai tgn sakit jadi merah-merah. or in other words, until your skin is mengelupas.

i just stood there like total jerk and stared and what is in my is betol ke???

but,
demi cintaku pada guitar, i'll do it! yeah!

bestfriend,sahabat&etc.

2009-06-11T13:20:00.003+08:00

Did someone just give me a wake up call or something?
it did realize me. it freaked me out for a moment.oh,yes.it does. ( it's the intro )

again, it turn to be a lousy day for me. i was extremely bored and again watching movie with izyan, brides war. i analyze the movie and ohh, it freakin me out. i thought about it once,twice until i can't even barely think about it. Somehow, i don't want my friendship with my bestfriend turn out to be that kind of way. Can ppl really imagine it. Somehow, that kind of thing may happen to us.

*the story begins with two bestfriend who known each other since they were a kid and dream of everything to be done together. One thing for sure that both of them really want is, getting married at The Plaza on June. So, both of them get engaged and bla..bla..bla..and they went to meet miss st.claire( if i'm not mistaken), the wedding planner. And the crisis happen when both of them got a same date for their wedding and none of them want to back off. Then, the fight start! and bla..bla..bla..until the weddinng day. They both fight at the altar and get back to be a bestfriend again.
( i summerised it up, you've got to watch it!)

of thoughts, bestfriend is like sisters. the bond is just too strong like a noble gas ; a stable electron arrangement. it's the same anology.
whatever happen, bestfriend will stick with each other.

i do have an experienced in which having fight and crisis with our own bestfriend but it actually make us stand to be strong and we both learned and yes, close again.

and of second thought, friends are not to be so perfect with each other because everyone is not perfect and there should be pros and cons. ( saying this through experience..ngeh!)

as the old saying ;
love someone from their weaknesses not from their perfections.

p/s : writing this through experienced. somehow, it's a real bad situation but definitely, it was better than before.

bulan ; )

2009-06-09T09:56:00.002+08:00

saya suka dia!!!

mahu atau tidak mahu, saya ttp mahu die.

kebosanan.saya merepek.

si butang.

2009-06-09T09:31:00.003+08:00

salam.

today, i felt a little bit alive than before. Last night i watch Benjamin Button starring the hot to throb, Brad Pitt and drop dead gojes, Kate Blanchet. Man, that movie really touched me. Sedih amat di pengakhirannya. Although, the movie is quite boring at the beginning but i still want to watch it. This Benjamin who is born to be old and then getting younger as he grown up. And i tell you, Brad Pitt is so not looking good when he's 80. Ooohh! so bad! Somehow, the movie gives some moral value that i can learn. It makes you think more in this movie because it's too abstract. Back to the hero, Mr. Bejamin. What a gentleman which i thought, i too can fall in love with him although he is waaaayyy to old than his age. Somehow i wonder, is there any more gentleman like Mr. Benjamin left in this world??? because i've to find one. haha! anyone???

p/s : i do wanna ride this bike with him. Jika anda punya motor ini dan anda kacak,
i mean, benar-benar kacak atau sgt kacak,
MARRY ME!

bored i am.

2009-06-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

salam.

BORED. i can only say that because that is the only thing that kept bugging my head. so, i've been doing loads in fact tones of stupid things which i couldn't describe or say here because it will only embarassed me. that sunday, i went to kg. because there was this kenduri and hell yeah! penat la weih! i thought, by going there, i can sit and goyang2 kaki but man...i had to wash the dish in hte house which is actually not that muchla...haha (mengada). luckily, i have this beautiful cousins yg amatla rajin helping me at the kitchen. phheeww! After all those tiring moment, i went back to taiping and i'm so happy that aina and farah stayed at kg. to play with all the cousin. ALEE!!! seronok because, the house will be more quiet because they are not there so that i could yell out at them..haha!

jd, inilah kami di kg. menjadi pencuci pinggan paling hot di kg. keroh hulu...

sila pandang atas anak2!

bagus..rajin..bole buat menantu.sape nk??

muke izyan yg mcm terpaksa..haha!

sekian utk cerita di kg.

selepas tu, hari ini, aku memulakan hariku di hospital.Maklumlah, kene biasakan diri..hehehe..
so, i went off to columbia asia for my medical check up result and reviewing my mentoux test. Alhamdulillah, i'm perfectly fine :D
di sana, aku terpaksa la tunggu sbb dr. yg merawatku ade emergency. An old folks. So, me and izyan went to the cafe and lepak-lepak di sana. We ate sandwich and minuman kegemaran saya ; tropicana twister...oooo lalalala!

nurse kt luar yg sibok asyik nk cuci tgn org...huuu

tv je besar..tp x psg pon..apelaaa....

oleh kerana lab test x siap..i went home and finished all the novels yg aku dh pinjam dari andak..sementara menunggu calls from columbia...haha!

the conclusion is, i'm bored and ca't wait to start my lesson in kmb although it was freakin hard and tiring.

p/s : aku rase mcm nk meletop je.

cinta sempurna ;)

2009-06-08T08:54:00.000+08:00

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
tak mampu tuk memnaggung sebuah cinta sempurna
Darimu

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan
Ohhh

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
Tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu
Darimu

maseh! maseh!

2009-06-03T12:45:00.000+08:00

1. Copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

2. Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik mengenai pemberi award ini :

- die classmate saya yg mule2 kitorang poyo sket sesama sendiri! haha!

- menjadi sahabat saya dan kuat gelak bersama
- HOT babe!
- out going...x kedekut! as usual, kuat gelak
- menjadi SPM candidate 2008 bersama saya! dia dpt 10 A awook!

3.Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya :

-kuat berangan
-kuat makan
-kuat pokpek
-kuat tidur
-saya penyayang tau!
-obses kot dgn cristiano ronaldo...haha!
-selalu semangat!
-syg kawan saya
-saya selalu single
-saya selalu gelak!

4.Anda perlu memilih 5 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka :

-izyan ; adekku yg sgt suke kamera dan si cantik menawan
-syud ; suke gelak bile aku bkk mulut juga kawan terbaik
-ilya ; cousin aku yg gojes
-aimi ; si cerdik pandai yg hensem
-afak ; junior MEGA dgn senyuman yg menawan.hehe :D

sekian.

love ; ainunMENAWAN

bersalah.

2009-06-03T09:16:00.001+08:00

hari ni, tak tahu mengapa, saya rasa amat bersalah.
saya tahu saya salah. saya tahu. tapi kenapa tak nak marah saya.
biar saya nangis.
saya dah buat kawan terbaik saya sedih. saya turut sedih.
saya benci benda nie. saya kecewa dgn diri saya.
kawan terbaik, saya minta maaf. Saya tahu, walaupun berjuta kali saya minta maaf, benda dah jadi.
lagi saya minta maaf dan terus begini, lagi saya rasa bersalah. tolong saya.
kadang-kadang kami gila berkongsi cerita. apa salahnya.
saya tidak suka orang yg menyakiti hati kawan terbaik saya kerana saya mengenalinya dulu dan menyayanginya dulu dari anda.
kawan terbaik saya adalah kawan saya masa susah dan senang.saya sayang dia.

kawan terbaik ;

saya sayang anda!

maaf ye!

wahahaha!

2009-06-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

shhh...just read it.

1. I need 2 tell u something, read number 5
2. Are u in a rush? Jgn kelam! read number 8
3. Are u curious now? QuiCK!! read number 9
4. Look its the following....u betta read number 15
5. I havent got the guts....just read number 17
6. I would like to tell u..but first read number 16
7. I'll tell u...but first read number 2
8. Its very simple...just read number 4
9. OyyTe..ingt explore race kew!...jus read number 18
10. err..jap2..aper ek nk ckp tdi??ahh..read number 19
11. Are u gettin tired? relax...just read number 13
12. Like i was saying....read number 3
13. You're nearly there....HaPPy??…read number 20
14. Just dropped by to say HI THERE,wassup!! heheehe!
15. Ur getting nervous ryte??..just read number 6
16. U still dont get it?? Your weird! just read number 12
17. Oh! im embarassed....read number 7
18. I dunno if u'll understand...just read number 10
19. Read number 11...slowly...and u'll find out
20. Now im'a tell u....read number 14...really quietly ok?

dah abes??? maseh! :D

the feelings.

2009-05-27T07:27:00.000+08:00

I’m a little bit sad today which I don’t know why. I surf the net a moment ago and went to KMB portal. Those thing that happen there crepe me out. The student there and the environment. Oh, it was hard for me actually. I started to think deep and wisely…am I taking the right path or else. Am I good enough??? Good enough to be with all the future student of KMB…I felt like crying. I don’t know. No reason at all. Sometimes I thought that maybe I should just study in Malaysia and I don’t have to think about this oversea issue. Ayah seems really happy and ibu too felt the same way. As I sat here and writing craps, those ideologies came to me again. I have lots of feelings inside me. It’s like stuck and couldn’t come out because there was a big and huge barrier beneath it. I felt scared, anxious, and a whole lot more. The questioned here is can I do it?? I’ m going to the most prestigious college for IB (international baccalaureate) in medicine. I know, deep down inside my heart, I can do it…it’s the matter of time that will reveal it.
Ainun, I’m writing this to you, Ainun Munirah Zulkiflee. Wake up and be real...looking forward for any opportunities. People give you the chances because they know you can do it. That’s why. Maybe, there are reasons Allah send you there. It’s because, you are chosen to be one of the overseas student. InsyaAllah…one day…

Ayah said, in this world, there’s nothing that can be done easily. Everything needs work. So, work hard. Failure is a way to the road of success but try not to be the failure and learn from every mistake that you’ve done.

Ibu said, we are normal people and tends to do mistake. Work smart and think positive. Ignore people that irritate you because they are no one in your life. Don’t forget Allah because He is the only one that can help you.

I say, in my life, I live for the sake of my ibu and ayah because I really love them. They will always be in my heart and mind because they give me motivation and spirit. They are my hero and I want to become their hero one fine day. Mind always think bad but you know yourself better as heart always speak the truth. Follow your heart and in God wills you will succeed!

My name is Ainun Munirah binti Zulkiflee

Soon, I’ll be going to Kolej MARA Banting

With hopes, desire and passion, I’ll do my best

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Ya Allah, aku hambamu yang lemah dan hina. Aku mengharapkan redha dan cintamu, ya Allah. Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat untuk belajar dan meneruskan cita-citaku ya Allah. Sesungguhnya, engkau maha mengetahui segala isi haitku. Berikanlah aku petunjuk dan suluhkanlah padaku cahaya keimanan ya Allah, amin.

isy!!!

2009-05-26T13:25:00.001+08:00

aku nk hempok computer nie sbb aku xbley nk tukr layout..

and now..everything is LINTANG PUKANG!!!!

sorry for the inconvinience..huh!

yippe!!!

2009-05-18T10:31:00.000+08:00

aku amat bersyukur! :D

tahniah kepada semua nahwal yang berjaya ke

Kolej MARA Banting!

semoga BERJAYA!

:D

thankful :D

2009-05-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

it's been a looong time since my last post..pheew!

ok, i was very thankful to Allah because Allah had given me a great life to live..Alhamdulillah...i was also thankful because i got an offer to Universiti Malaya for Asasi Sains Hayat.For me, it was enough but, i'm still boping foer the best...insyaAllah..if God wills..heee..kalau ade chance, nk jugak aku merasa pegi ireland ke, russia ke..heee :D

i'm still waiting for the result and everybody was asking me.."dah dpt ke offer?"

gosh! that questioned always piss me off! but xpe..may they pray the best for me as i noe, they love me...

untuk UM, tunggulah...i'll be there! :D

hang out bersama muizz [ the gardens]

2009-04-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

memang glamour!!!
hari ini, aku dan sepupuku,muizz a.k.a cimuit pegila meronda mid valley tu...excited mcm biawak masuk mid valley pastu pegi terus mcd sbb lapar sgt...then, kitorang pegi beli tiket wyg..konon2 nk tgk the uninvited yg konon2 lagi tu seramla sgt! pooorrraaah!!!! kalau nenek aku yg direct pon lg seram..aiyo! syud yg ikot aku tgk wyg tu pon kte x seram walaupun pada hakikatnya die dah terpekik telolong sebelum start movie lg..hehehehehe..syud2..yg sepupu aku plak mmg habis machola duduk diam2 tgk wyg..sempoila! tp aku tau jgk die takut..di lubuk hati die yang paling dalam...wahahahaha!!!!

tetapi!!! sebelum kami ke wayang, aku dan muizz buat muke selamba biawak kitorang masuk the gardens...wahahahaha..kelakar seyh..konon anak tauke petronas ke pe...hehehehe..semulanya kami bercite2 jgkla nk beli bju tetapi memandangkan harganya yg menyebabkan ktorang boleh support diri utk sebulan, ktorang x jadila..mau gugur rambut aku nie..mule2 ktorang masuk GAP...heee..confident habislah! lps tu..belek satu baju..pastu pusing butik tu..belek lagi bju..tp bkn baju pon yg ktorang tgk..tp tag price die..hahahaha...pas2 ktorang wat muke secomel mungkin masuk Armani exchange..wahahaha..aku rasekan baju tu mcm singlet pagoda ayah aku je tp sbb ade cop armani exchange die jd len trus..huh!aku memebelek..paling murah pon rm180..mak aii! tp xdela jerit kt situ...still mencomelkan diri dan mencari pintu keluar yang aku rasa mmg dh panggil aku lame dah...yang paling best ktorang ke banana republic..woooaaa!!! cousin aku wat muke x malu..alkisahnya..aku baru masuk 2 minit..baju pon x smpt pegang tp cousin aku dh keluar..pastu aku mcm cicak cari die..rupenye die dh lari keluar..die x tgk bju pon..tp trus cari tag price kt baju tp xjmpela plak! tp sbb kakak sales girl tu dah mcm kambing snyum2..die pon kate..

sales girl : [ senyum kambing]
muizz : aahh..tq je...heee :D

wahahahahaha!!! aku punyela nk tergelak..tp sebaik aku pndai belakon..konon2 belek la lg due tige baju..smbil tu tgkla hrge die..yg paling murah pon aku tgk is rm 346..adoi!!! mane aku nk cari det..nk beli boleh tp 4 tahunla aku x tuka baju tu..huuuu..gile la dunia skarang nie...

mmg glamour!!! ktorang dah jln..rse mcm nk membuang..carila toilet...

mcm ni la toilet kt situ...

-tandas! RM5...katenye : please pay rm5 to enter
aku mcm..tuttt!!!! wtf! tgk pakcik india pakai kot kaler hitam yg jage toilet tu...aiyo..mau masuk tu pon mhl sgt ka??? mcmla die bgi mngkuk tandas emas pon! air die sme je...mcm spa la plak tandas...

tp takpe,aku redha..sape soh aku pergi situ...tibe2..aku jmpe signboard toilet lg..n guess what! aku dh tkut nk masuk toilet tu..sbb nnti kene byr rm5...cousin aku mmg selamba masuk je..rupenye xyah byr plak kt floor tu...hahhahaha...habis sungguh2 die ajak aku soh aku try masuk toilet..die kate.." cepatla wei..hang masuk..aku tunggu luar..nnti rugi wei kalau x masuk!"

hehehehe...tp betulla...best gile..aku bole menginap pon kt situ...

lps dah tgk n merewang kt the gardens tu..aku n muizz pon balik mid valley n tgkla cite wyg yg x bape nk seram tu....

conclusionnye, outing hari nie mmg bestla!!! havoc gile!! muizz, kte boleh wat cmnie lagi eh!
to syudud..sronokla tgk cte hantu ngan ko!! wahahahaha :D

hehehe :D

2009-04-27T09:08:00.000+08:00

salam. saya baru sahaja habis membaca mega.

first impression ketika mendapat majalah itu :

1.cantiknya !!! xsia2 aku jd MEGArians..hehehe :D

bila aku go through majalah tu, rase mcm sedih sgt sbb teringat story dulu2..aiyo...kenangan lampau! hehehehe...very memorable..

ku belek2 muke kawan aku dlm majalah tu..sume mmg gempak..yang comel dan menawan dan yang hensem dan macho!

aku rindu skolah aku!!!!

so, utk sume org yg sudah membaca MEGA, diharap anda menyukainya..maseh!

sygku!!! i've been tagged.

2009-04-27T08:51:00.000+08:00

THIS IS A TOAST.. TO US.. FOR THE MEN WHO HAVE US, THE LOSERS WHO HAD US, AND THE LUCKY PEOPLE WHO WILL MEET US!!

You have been hit.
You are considered one of the prettiest ladies with a kind, warm and loving heart.
Once you have been hit, you have to hit 10 pretty ladies with kind, warm and loving hearts.
If you get hit again you know you're really pretty and kind.
So hit 10 pretty ladies to let them know they are pretty -- both on the inside and the outside and that they are loved and cared about.

SEND THIS TO PRETTY LADIES TO BRIGHTEN THEIR DAY. REMIND THEM TO BE INFORMED, AWARE AND CHECKED FOR THEIR HEALTH'S SAKE. TELL THEM THAT NO ONE WANTS TO LOSE THEM; AFTER ALL, THEY ARE PRETTY LADIES WITH KIND, WARM, LOVING HEARTS.

I hit you ;

syud,aimi,afak,izyan,fung,wafa,,deeb,ilya,ball,nad